memories under the trees

Don't understand..

2012-03-12T12:27:00.000+08:00

i dun understand, why is it that guys out there who are not true with love get all the girls? the guy who stay true to the girl he love doesn't get her. i'm not convinced. i really feel that she is saying that she like someone else is a way to make me give up. if i found out that its real, i will fight hard to get back. why did she give me all the false hopes if she didn't even like me a bit? why? i really don't understand! maybe i'm just stubborn ain't it. is it true that you must be either rich or good looking than you will get the girl? Fuck you if you really think that way!

i've been too hurt by love.. i need somewhere to take my mind off. i'm strong on the outside but crying on the inside. the pain in the heart can be felt literally. whatever it is, i just let my heart lead me from here on. i promise, in the future, i will not fall for any false hopes or whatever which is not confirm. i feel like hating her but i just can't do it.

if my friends were reading this, maybe they'll ask me to be a man and live with it. all i can ask is, have you ever been the one where every girl who you loved just reject you?

From me to you...

2012-03-11T20:56:00.001+08:00

Ever since you rejected me, my emotions had been like a rollercoaster. At times I'm up, at times I'm down. The first few days were terrible. I asked for chance, but I guess I did wrong. I cried the next day, it was then I felt much better. After talking with Adrian, I feel much better. He taught me a lot of things that night and I felt great the next day. Gradually after days passed, I'm thinking of you again. I just can't let you go.

Though I'm thinking of you, I won't let my emotions get over me again. If you love a person, you will want that person to be happy right? I want to do that. I have shown my weakness to you when chasing you, that's why you feel I have a childish mindset. That is also why I will come back stronger. I'll show it to you.

What I'm disappointed is that you promised we will be good friends, good buddies. You promised you will meet me for meals if I asked. And when i asked, you didn't even reply. I don't understand what is this. I am trying to retain a friendship and you are doing this. You said you don't want to give me the wrong idea, and hurt me. Come on, I know very clear where I stand in the first place. I want to ask you out, as a friend, as a good buddy, and help you with your problems. At the same time, I want to be the one who care for you. It doesn't matter which guy you will eventually go out with anymore. In my heart, all I want to do is be there for you. I want to be by your side when you are unhappy. I want to catch you when you fall. I don't need a status, I just want to be there when you need a shoulder to lean on, your listening ear.

I may fully let go, I may not. Right now you have everything I see in a girl. Why did I like you? I came to realise. I like girls who doesn't goes to the club, very decent, doesn't flirt. I like girls who I can speak my problems to. I just need her to listen. I like girls who are kind hearted. And there are more. You are that kind of girl I'm looking for and I believe its very difficult to find one in Singapore anymore. Guess its too late say this now.

If I have the chance, I will woo you again. But when that time comes, it will be different from the last time. I will make sure I handle my emotions better this time. I will make it the sweetest process.

Right now, I only wish we can settle our problem very soon. Few years back, I lost a good friend over the same thing. Although we patched up, I know it ain't the same as last time. I want to handle this properly. I don't want to lose a friend like you. I won't let you know I will woo you again, but if you happen to come to my blog and read this, which I don't think you'll come, then this will be a secret you found out by fate.

I will come back stronger, just you see.

Edited:
She just told me. She think she had feelings for another guy. Though I'm hurt, but I wish her all the best. Guess its time to let go and move on......

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Song of the blog

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McFly - POV

I'm getting tired of asking
This is the final time
So did I make you happy because you cried an ocean
When there's a thousand lines about the way you smile written in my mind
But every single word's a lie

I never wanted everything to end this way
But you can take a blue sky and turn it grey
I swore to you that I would do my best to change
But you said, "It don't matter"

I'm looking at you from another point of view
I don't know how the hell I fell in love with you
I never wish for anyone to feel the way I do

Is this a sign from heaven showing me the light
Was this supposed to happen
I'm better of without you so you can leave tonight
And don't you dare come back and try to make things right
'Cause I'll be ready for a fight
Yeah

I never wanted everything to end this way
But you can take a blue sky and turn it grey
I swore to you that I would do my best to change
But you said, "It don't matter"

I'm looking at you from another point of view
I don't know how the hell I fell in love with you
I never wish for anyone to feel the way I do
Hey

I never wanted everything to end this way
But you can take a blue sky and turn it grey
I swore to you that I would do my best to change
But you said, "It don't matter"

I'm looking at you from another point of view
I don't know how the hell I fell in love with you
I never wish for anyone to feel the way I do

(You said and you said and you said)
I do
(You said and you said and you said)
Do

I do
(And you said and you said and you said)
I do
(You said and you said and you said)
Do
(You said, "It don't matter")

(And you said and you said and you said)
(You said and you said and you said)
(You said, "It don't matter")

(You said and you said and you said)
(You said and you said and you said
(You said, "It don't matter")

Bye 2011, Hello 2012!

2011-12-31T23:59:00.000+08:00

Year 2011 is ending soon. Like to share my New Year resolutions for 2012 for the people who even bother to come here and read.

First 2011 was not too bad. 2 new jobs, started school. Been busy, been bad but the best thing that happened was knowing her. Last week Christmas, managed to ask her out for lunch. I'm glad she agreed to meet. I enjoy her company, even if we are not doing anything.

2012, here's my resolutions:
My resolutions for next year is simple. Not too much.
Main ones: I hope i can meet her more often and of course i'll be glad if she is willing to start a relationship with me. But we gotta to get more closer and know each other more. I really hope i can go USS with her. Recently, she had been in my mind all the time, one day no text, i feel like dying. I dunno who will want to go into relationship with someone like me, I'm not even sure if I have that chance but I will try. Of course, while I try hard, I should not neglect my school work. Because I keep thinking of her, i am jealous of which guy he goes out with, I'm afraid that I will lose out to other guys, I really think i am unable to concentrate well. If really she accept me or at least tell me now that I'm not the one, at least i can faster recover and focus on my studies. I will not stress her of course... i dropped hints, obvious or not is up to her. How to know if a girl is interested in you? I really hope i can read her mind. Never in my life had i have a girl, text me for 6 straight months. She wore dress for me to see just because i say her never wear dress. Some pple say is obvious, but i dun think can base on all these to judge. Until I can confirm it, den i ask the question.

2nd resolution: studies of course! I really hope i can be smart enough to learn things fast and do well for my exams!

Other resolutions: i hope i can progress, in terms of attitude, maturity, and i hope i can be the one who make things happen, increase my knowledge. I hope i can be a good friend!

Happy New Year Everyone! :)

You make me colorblind

2011-12-20T13:34:00.002+08:00

Been a long time since i last post. Today I blogged because I just want to get some things off my chest. Its been bugging me, making emo in and out at times.

I enjoyed my date with her on Sat and I really wish that day would never end. It was a long day, brought her to Ragoon road to eat Bak Kut Teh, PS watch Alvin and Chipmunk 3, Vivo walk around, Holland V to eat and finally back to Vivo for Mission Impossible.

I particularly like the time when we are at Vivo, we sit down on the 4th floor open space, look into the sea and ships and Sentosa and chatted. The peace and quiet, and her company. Also after dinner, we went to broadway walk, actually wanted to see if have fireworks, but we were quite late, so sit down around the area and just stare at the stars, do nothing, enjoy each other's company. The music from the pub makes it even more perfect. During the walk to walkway, we took some pictures, i hope i had the courage to ask to take more pictures together. Haiz. Anyway for these two moments, i really wished the time will just stop and it will stay like this forever.

After movies, I sent her home, taxi uncle also thought we were couple. I really hoped. After she reached home, uncle told me, if she's not interested in you, she wouldn't let me send her home already. I was glad to hear that, but I dun dare think so much. After that day, I wanted to see her like everyday. I kept thinking of her smile. I dunno, I think she is very beautiful when she smile. How I wish I have a car and I can just drive to her home just to see her.

Everyday I wonder, did she even think of me? There are times I didn't text her, and I thought, that's it, i think we going to lose contact.. But she will text me again another day later, and I was like so happy to receive it. I really have the urge, that urge to tell her how I feel about her. But i know the time is not ripe yet.

When we meet, i still can feel a little shyness between the 2 of us. Few times when we were on the escalator, or crossing the roads, i really feel like holding her. Instead, i held her bag. When we talk, it was like very random.. is like, we need to search for topics to chat and I kept repeating things i said. Both of us doesn't seem too good in conversation when we met.

Almost every 15 mins I check whatsapp. I always check when's she last online.. I really hope I always see "typing..." and that she will text me. I think i lost my mind.

Right now, i have fell very deep into this hole call love. Its so deep, I'm unable to climb out. Sometimes I'm happy, sometimes I'm emo. School gonna start for the both of us soon. I wont have the time to meet her again. I really have the urge to tell her I like her, to let her know it but i couldnt.

I'm the very insensitive kind of person. I can't sense how she felt about me. Can't use message as the main source. We must meet more often. I dropped a lot of hints. They are pretty obvious. The things i did, i dun think she dunno. I made a card for her exam, for her to jiayou. I went all the way near her place to pass to her. Don't tell me this alone doesn't shows anything.

Whenever we don't text, my mind is in a state of confusion. I dun want to keep initiating like it was a routine. However, most of the time i cannot take it.. Haiz. Why is it so difficult to fall in love?

Right now, i just hope she stays happy, i hope i am the one who can cheer her up. I hope she is able to meet me everytime I ask her out. I will try my best.

all i want for christmas is you.

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Lyrics of post
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Feelin' blue
When I'm trying to forget this feeling
That I miss you

Feelin' green
When the jealousy swells and it won't
Go away in dreams

Feelin' yellow
I'm confused inside a little hazy but mellow
When I feel your eyes on me

Feelin' fine, sublime
When that smile of yours
Creeps into my mind

Oh oh

Nobody told me it feels so good
Nobody said you'd be so beautiful
Nobody warned me about your smile
You're the light
You're the light
When I close my eyes
I'm colour blind
You make me colour blind

Feelin' red
When you spend all your time with your friends
And not me instead

Feelin' black
When I think about all of the things that
I feel I lack

Feelin' jaded
When it's not gone right
All the colours have faded
Then I feel your eyes on me

Feelin' fine, sublime
When that smile of yours
Creeps into my mind

Oh oh

Nobody told me it feels so good
Nobody said you'd be so beautiful
Nobody warned me about your smile
You're the light
You're the light
When I close my eyes
I'm colour blind
You make me colour blind

Blinded by the light you shine
The colours fade completely
Blinded by you everytime
I feel your smile defeat me
I'm colour blind
I just can't deny this feelin'

Nobody told me it feels so good
Nobody said you'd be so beautiful
Nobody warned me about your smile
You're the light
You're the light
When I close my eyes
I'm colour blind

Nobody told me it feels so good
Nobody said you'd be so beautiful
Nobody warned me about your smile
You're the light
You're the light
When I close my eyes
I'm colour blind

(You're the light
You're the light)
When I close my eyes
You make me colour blind

(You're the light
You're the light)
When I close my eyes
You make me colour blind

(You're the light
You're the light)
When I close my eyes
I'm colour blind.....

No Time!!!

2011-10-31T12:52:00.000+08:00

While waiting for my timelog to load, I just do a quick one to relieve some stress!

STRESS AH!

Wah lao.. This week xiong! Tml have quiz, havent study, 3 assignments (1 maths, 2 from Property Management) need to submit. The maths assignment, wah lao eh! so fucking difficult. Fucking matrix, must one part of the question must do 2 pages, only 10 points, then another part of the question only need 3 lines, also 10 points! WTF! I hope exam dun give this kind of question lor. One question think for one whole week also cannot do. Total focus and plus research also require 1 whole day. WTF!!

Maths exam is on 19 Nov... My Vectors, Differential equation (Partial Differential, 1st Order, 2nd Order) all dunno!! and now must bullet train Laplace Transform!! 14 Nov must submit a 15 page report, and I haven't start!! Siao Liao!!

Today MC, must use this period to do all my things. OK, Time Log load liao. Gotta do work!

I really can feel the PRESSURE!!!

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Lyrics of post
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Paramore - Pressure

Tell me where our time went
And if it was time well spent
Just don't let me fall asleep
Feeling empty again

Cuz I fear I might break
And I fear I can't take it
Tonight i'll lie awake
Feeling empty

I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
We're better off without you
I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
We're better off without you

Now that I'm losing hope
And there's nothing else to show
For all the days that we spent
Carry away from home

Some things I'll never know
And I had to let them go
I'm sitting all alone
Feeling empty

I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
We're better off without you
I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
We're better off without you
Without you

Some things I'll never know
And I had to let them go
Some things I'll never know
And I had to let them go
But I'm sitting all alone
Feeling empty

I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
We're better off without you
I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
You're better off without me

Disappointed

2011-10-28T09:56:00.000+08:00

I'm really really shock to see what was said. Just because I say what I feel in my opinion, I was said I did not give respect. I am really very disappointed.

My opinion of people queuing up for one whole night just to get one gadget stays the same. Its crazy. When you can get it at a later time of the year, listen to what other people say about the first batch, then buy the second batch. Some people stand under the rain just to get that iPhone. But while I say this, my friends don't see eye to eye to my comments.

But my intentions to my comments are that why people must suffer to get one gadget when it will still be released? Look at iPhone 4, people chiong to get, in the end, isn't it still selling now? Isn't almost everyone in the world still using it? It'll be the same as iPhone 4s mah. In terms of my comments, I only voice out what I feel. There is no intent of disrespect. We have been friends for so long, is that what you think about me? Is that how you understand me to be? If it is that way, I am really disappointed. The comment that people only hear what they want to hear is also saddening. You have your opinions you want to prove, I have my opinions I want to prove. Did you accept my opinion? In the end, you argued your opinion with how you felt, I didn't have anything to say because its really how you felt. The way you argued is strong. My comments are aimed at those who queue up for the iPhone just for the iPhone, or because its an iPhone. When Ben came out and say its because they had vouchers which are ending end of the month, I accepted it because its a really simple valid reason. But I like to emphasize, when I commented, I DID NOT show disrespect, I only just saying what I felt. Please understand.

Bear in mind that this post is not aimed at you, but is at the disappointment i feel in your tweet. Honestly speaking, I am reluctant to publish this post because you will misunderstand, or our different ideas will make you misunderstand my intentions. But I have to because I know you come to my blog more than anyone else, and I don't want to hide my displeasure. If we hide our displeasure from each other, then in the first place we shouldn't be friends. Friends should be honest with each other. But I know if i going to go private on whatsapp, I won't get my intention clear, and more misunderstand will occur, so thats why I'm doing it in one big post and let you read everything I feel.

=)

2011-09-04T02:33:00.000+08:00

I'm a happy man! Yeah! Well, everything went well.. hmm, just feels like normal friends coming out to eat. Surprisingly we still have many random topics to talk about. Talk about anything, our old homes, sec sch... lols. Maybe its because we have been texting everyday, so we dun really lack of topics to talk about. After dinner, went PS, take tickets, randomly walk around and randomly walked until start of movie. haha. Final Destination 5, in 3D, was erm, well, not too bad. Really. Anytime, any minute, anything can happen. I dun even have time to drink a sip of water. haha. I suggest you watch in Digital better. Don't waste money watch in 3D, because the bloody effect to me is a bit fake. haha. Well, I watched, and got afraid but i'm smiling. After the movie, before we reached MRT, i gave her the keychians i bought from Malaysia. Loved the look on her face, I think is cute. After that we went separate ways. Short night, but to me its enjoyable. Wished it didn't end, wished the time passed more slowly. I hope I didn't bored her out. Hehe. Don't know when I'll see her again, hopefully, there will be more dates in the future... =)

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Lyrics of Post
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There I was again tonight
Forcing laughter, faking smiles
Same old tired, lonely place
Walls of insincerity
Shifting eyes and vacancy
Vanished when I saw your face
All I can say is it was enchanting to meet you
Your eyes whispered "Have we met?"
Across the room, your silhouette
Starts to make its way to me
The playful conversation starts
Counter all your quick remarks
Like passing notes in secrecy
And it was enchanting to meet you
All I can say is I was enchanted to meet you
Chorus

This night is sparkling, don't you let it go
I'm wonderstruck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you

The lingering question kept me up
2 am, who do you love?
I wonder 'til I'm wide awake
Now I'm pacing back and forth
Wishing you were at my door
I'd open up and you would say
It was enchanting to meet you
All I know is I was enchanted to meet you

Chorus

This night is sparkling, don't you let it go
I'm wonderstruck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
This night is flawless, don't you let it go
I'm wonderstruck, dancing around all alone
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you

This is me praying that
This was the very first page
Not where the story line ends
My thoughts will echo your name
Until I see you again
These are the words I held back
As I was leaving too soon
I was enchanted to meet you

Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you
Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you

Chorus

This night is sparkling, don't you let it go
I'm wonderstruck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
This night is flawless, don't you let it go
I'm wonderstruck, dancing around all alone
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you

Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you

my first big step... excited!! sweat

2011-09-03T01:58:00.000+08:00

OMG! She agreed to go out with me, and we are going to watch a movie too! Haha. I'm so happy and excited. I used the gift as an excuse to meet her. Really really small gift, but i felt the way I told her, is like its a super big gift. I hope she won't be like, "erm, dot dot dot" when she sees it. *Fingers crossed*. Oh, we are going to watch Final Destination 5. She like horror shows. OMG. Well, dun quite like it, but I give it to her la. Its the company that's important. I think even if its gross, I will be grossed with a big smile on my face. HAHA! I dunno what I will say, or what I will do.. but I think I just keep things simple. Simple dinner, simple chat, simple movie. Shan't do anything huge and silly. One step at a time, dude!

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Lyrics of post
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In the car, I just cant wait
To pick you up on our very first date
Is it cool if I hold your hand?
Is it wrong if I think it's lame to dance?
Do you like my stupid hair?
Would you guess that I didnt know what to wear?
I'm just scared of what you'll think.
You make me nervous so I really can't eat

Lets go... don't wait... this nights almost over
Honest... lets make... this night last forever
Forever and ever... lets make this last forever
Forever and ever... lets make this last forever

When you smile, I melt inside
I'm not worthy for one minute of your time
I really wish it was only me and you
I'm jealous of everybody in the room
Please don't look at me with those eyes
Please don't hint that your capable of lies
I dread the thought of our very first kiss
A target that I'm probably gonna miss

Lets go... don't wait... this nights almost over
Honest... lets make... this night last forever
Forever and ever... lets make this last forever
Forever and ever... lets make this last forever

Lets go... don't wait... this nights almost over
Honest... lets make... this night last forever
Forever and ever... lets make this last forever
Forever and ever... lets make this last forever

Forever and ever... lets make this last forever
Forever and ever... lets make this last forever

=) =(

2011-08-30T01:06:00.000+08:00

First of all, Selamat Hari Raya to all my Muslim friends! Time to break fast and have a good time with your delicacies! =)

Next, I'm feeling very good now, cause she texted me. Haha. She got something from Happy Meal and she sent it to me. I do think I really have a chance, just that she's not ready yet. Well, I'm not going to put too much hope, so I just gonna treat it that she just treat me as a good friend. Maybe she also sent it to other people. Haha. But I'm just happy to receive her text. Maybe I try to ask her out for dinner this Sat after my makeup lecture. Hopefully she agrees. =P Haiz.... its really weird i can feel so happy over a text message. lols.

Next again, missed the steamboat session with 5052453 gang. =( i really wanted to go... but my mum insist i go see chinese doc in Lavender. I reached home is around 9pm++, abit no point to go down already. Haiz... So hope to meet up face to face with the friend I got into trouble with. I really hope everything's fine. I would like to think maybe its because of some other problems, perhaps family, thats why he became like that. No matter what, we will be there for him. However, I still think its my fault, if I had not trigger it back then... Haiz.. how great will it be if there is a System Restore in real life just like the one in all your PCs.

Anyway, tired.. Gotta spend my holiday studying. Goodnight. =)

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Lyric of post

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Bad Meets Evil ft. Bruno Mars - Lighters

[Bruno Mars]
This one's for you and me, living out our dreams
We are right where we should be
With my arms out wide I open my eyes
And now all I wanna see
Is a sky full of lighters
A sky full of lighters

[Eminem]
By the time you hear this I will have already spiraled up
I would never do nothing to let you cowards fuck my world up
If I was you, I would duck, or get struck like lightening,
Fighters keep fighting, put your lighters up, point em' skyward uh
Had a dream I was king, I woke up, still king…
This rap game's nipple is mine for the milking,
Till nobody else even fucking feels me, till' it kills me
I swear to god I'll be the fucking illest in this music
There is or there'll ever will be, disagree?
Feel free, but from now on I'm refusing to ever give up
Only thing I gave up using, no more excuses
Excuse me if my head is too big for this building
And pardon me if I'm a cocky prick but you cocks are slick
Poppin shit on how you flipped ya life around, crock of shit
Who you dicks tryin' to 'kid', flip 'dick', you did the opposite
You stayed the same, cause 'cock' backwardss is still 'cock', you pricks
I love it when I tell em shove it
Cause it wasn't that long ago when Marshall sat flustered lacked luster
Cause he couldn't cut mustard, muster up nothing
Brain fuzzy, cause he's buzzin', woke up from that buzzer
Now you wonder why he does it, how he does it
Wasn't cause he had buzzards, circling 'round his head
Waiting for him to drop dead, was it?
Or was it cause them bitches wrote him off
Little hussy ass scuzzes, fuck it, guess it doesn't matter now, does it?
What difference it make?
What it take to get it through your thick skulls
That this this aint some bullshit
People don't usually come back this way
From a place, was dark as I was in
Just to get to this place
Now let these words be like a switch blade to a haters rib cage
And let it be known from this day forward
I wanna just say thanks cause your hate is what gave me strength
So let them bic's raise cause I came with 5'9' but I feel like I'm 6'8?

[Bruno Mars]
This one's for you and me, living out our dreams
We are right where we should be
With my arms out wide I open my eyes
And now all I wanna see
is a sky full of lighters
a sky full of lighters

[Royce da 5'9"]
By the time you hear this I'll probably already be outtie
I advance like going from tote' n iron, I end up going and buying 4 or 5 of the homies the Iron Man Audi
My daddy told me slow down, boy, you goin to blow it
And I aint gotta stop the beat a minute
To tell Shady I love him the same way that he did Dr Dre on the Chronic
Tell him how real he is or high I am
Or how I would kill for him, for him to know it
I cried plenty tears, my daddy got a bad back
So it's only right that I write till he can march right into that post office and tell em to hang it up
Now his career's Lebron's jersey in 20 years
I stop when I'm at the very top
You shitted on me on your way up
It's bout to be a scary drop
Cause what goes up must come down
You going down on something you don't wanna see, like a hairy box
Every hour, happy hour now
Life is wacky now
Used to have to eat the cat to get the pussy
Now I'm just the cats meooww,
Outclassed the count, always down for the catch wieght like Pacquaiao
Ya'll are doomed
Ya'll remember when T-Pain aint want to work with me
My car starts itself, parks itself and autotunes
Cause now I'm I the Aston
I went from having my city locked up
To getting treated like Kwame Kilpatrick
And now I'm fantastic
Compared it to a weed high
And y'all niggas just gossiping like bitches on a radio when TV
See me, we fly
Y'all buggin out like Wendy Williams staring at a bee-hive
And how real is that
I remember siging my first deal and now I'm the second best, I can deal with that
Now Bruno can show his ass, without the MTV awards gag

[Bruno Mars]
You and I know what it's like to be kept down
Forced to fight
But tonight we're alright
So hold up your light
Let it shine
Cause this one's for you and me, living out our dreams
We are right where we should be
With my arms out wide I open my eyes
And now all I wanna see
Is a sky full of lighters
A sky full of lighters

Glory Glory Man United!

2011-08-29T13:39:00.000+08:00

It's been a long long long time since I posted something regarding soccer but I'm just too happy, so I'm just going to post it. Great game! Man Utd 8 - Arsenal 2. Can you believe it?! Its not Wigan, not Stockport County, its ARSENAL! But pity to Arsene Wenger and his team. 3 matches, 3 sent offs. Arsenal's really too unlucky. Injuries, suspension, best players sold and their morale is totally down. I hope they recover soon because its a waste to see a top club go down. From the past few games, I can see United's attacking style is really different. This time they play with a lot of pace. The young players are really good. The attacking play, superb! One of the best Man United team I ever seen.


Final Score...

The players...

Welbeck..

De Gea's Penalty save

Ashley Young had 2 wonderful goals.

Celebration. Anderson is super cute la!

Rooney had a hat-trick. Phil Jones is superb in defence

Celebration. Anderson is cute here again.

Park scored against Arsenal... As usual.

Cleverly is another superb player

Nani had a very cheeky goal. Nice!

I haven't text her today. Wah... I look at the phone, she's online on whatsapp, but no text. I shall wait for her. I've already shown a bit ugly side of me, well, its better if she knows it and no, i did not flare temper at her. Haha. Well, I really hope she can sense what I feel for her. Haha.

Saw this on today's my paper. My first thought: I should buy one set for her. I should buy it, keep it, and maybe give it to her someday. I still owe her the gift i bought from Penang. Its a key chain, i think its very nice. It's got her chinese name on it. So if i were to meet her, i can't possibly give her so many gifts at once right? I thinking I could buy this, keep it, and give it to her like on Christmas. Is that okay?

I hope for your message, i hope for your chance, i hope for your hope...

wanna be the one who is there for you....

2011-08-28T22:11:00.000+08:00

Today while chatting, we somehow chat until her ex. And speaking of that, she got abit agitated. I knew while she is telling me all those, she must be crying. And later she really admitted she did cry. When she said that, I really wished I was beside her when she said all those and I can give her a shoulder to cry on. Maybe I wished too much. Somehow she lost trust in guys, she dunno when a guy says a thing, issit just for the moment or issit an empty promise or issit just sweet talk. She dun know what to believe and I hope to be the one who will gain back her trust in guys. Her ex might not be a total asshole, but he still is. Hate it when people take each other for granted. But while I'm saying all these, I wonder, with both our busy schedules, can I be there when she needs me most? Will I have enough time for her? Will I take her for granted? Will I flare my temper just because I am too stressed? I really hope not. I know I can cool down fast, but in the heated moment, anything can be said. Just like what I did a couple days ago and now my friend is like totally changed. I really wish he would turn normal again.

Yesterday, somehow while she is studying with her best friend and while we are texting each other, her friend somehow hijack her phone, and said hello to me. Haha. I dunno why, when I saw that I felt happy. I thought, did she talk of me to her friend? Nah.. let's not think too much. She also told me this new classmate wants to ask her out like that. Her best friend help her reply she is busy. LOL! So I dunno whether this texting thing is really helping me not since she is the one who will reply anyone. I told her the guy want to woo her and she said she dunno how to reject. I told her if she know someone interested in her but she's not interested, dun give false hope or be too friendly which can lead to false hope. I'm actually referring to myself. I know I'm shortening my chance, but if she really knows I like her, and she really is not interested in me, i really think she should show it too. If its because she is not ready for a relationship, I can wait until she's ready. But if she's not interested in me, I think I shouldn't waste my time, but then again, I will have to try to do something first before I say give up. =)

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When I see your smile
tears roll down my face.
I can't replace.

And now that I'm strong I have figured out
how this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul,
and I know I'll find deep inside me, I can be the one.

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all,
even if saving you sends me to heaven.

It's ok...
It's ok...
It's ok...

Seasons are changing and waves are crashing
and stars are falling all for us
days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one.

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever.
I'll be there for you through it all,
even if saving you sends me to heaven.

Cause you're my
you're my, my,
my true love,
my whole heart,
please don't throw that away.

Cause I'm here, for you
please don't walk away and
please tell me you'll stay, stay..

Use me as you will
pull my strings just for a thrill
and I know I'll be okay
though my skies are turning gray.

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
even if saving you sends me to heaven.

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
even if saving you sends me to heaven.

Totally bad bad day. 一个接一个。。。

2011-08-25T23:05:00.001+08:00

Dunno what happened today. Account suddenly locked, new incoming boss keep shooting me questions... and i just want to let off my temper cause i just couldn't contain it. They are trying to cool me down, I guess I'm serious too tired to think. But I dun understand how things can lead to me watching soccer, but not on purpose, i guess the way I phrase it was abit rude. I disappointed my friend. I dun blame him. I totally understand he is the one who cares for us most. He's most vocal in our group. He's our boss! At that point of time, I'm not thinking rationally and drop the wrong comments. After thinking through and saw his post, I felt so guilty. I totally understand he really meant well. He is straightforward and I know that. Why did I let my anger from my boss cause this shit to happen? I should really have thought before i try to express anything. I'm really apologetic. He's one of the friends who give good and straightforward advice whether we like it or not. We should take it like a man, not go against it. True, sometimes different people have different views, but I suppose if that's the case, I should say it out probably but I didn't. Now my friend is so quiet, whatsapp dun reply, facebook no comment. I think he is really disappointed in me. I dunno what I can do. I only want a place to vent out and they are the ones i know who will be there to hear me out. Instead, I created a mess. Haiz... Hope things will turn out find... Really...

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Eminem, Dr Dre ft Skylar Grey - I Need A Doctor

[Chorus]
I'm about to lose my mind
You've been gone for so long
I'm running out of time
I need a doctor
Call me a doctor
I need a doctor, doctor
To bring me back to life

[Eminem]
I told the world, one day I would pay it back
Say it on tape, and let it record it
So that one day I could play it back
But I don't even know if I believe it when I'm saying that
Ya'll startin' to creep, and everyday is just so gray and black
Hope? I just need a ray of that
'Cause no one sees my vision when I play it for 'em
They just say its wack
But they don't know what dope is
And I don't know if I was awake or asleep when I wrote this,
All I know is, you came to me when I was at my lowest
You picked me up, brething life in me
I owe my life to you
But for the life of me, I dont see why you don't see like I do
But it just dawned on me you lost a son
Demons fightin' you, it's dark.
Let me turn on the lights and brigthen me and enlighten you
I don't think you realise what you mean to me
Not the slightest clue
'Cause me and you were like a crew
I was like your sidekick
You goin' either wanna fight when I get off this fuckin' mic
Or you goin' hug me
But I'm out of options, there's nothing else I can do cause ,

[Chorus]
I'm about to lose my mind
You've been gone for so long
I'm running out of time
I need a doctor
Call me a doctor
I need a doctor, doctor
To bring me back to life

[Eminem]
It hurts when I see you struggle
You come to me with ideas
You say they're just pieces so I'm puzzled
'Cause the shit I hear is crazy
But your either getting lazy or you don't believe in you no more
Seems like your own opinion's, not one you can form
Can't make a decision, you keep questioning yourself
Second guessing and its almost like your begging for my help
Like I'm your leader
Your susposed to fucking be my mentor
I can endure, no more,
I demand you remember who you are
It was you, who believed in me
When everyone was telling you don't sign me
Everyone at the fucking label, let's tell the truth
You risked your career for me
I know it as well as you
Nobody wanted to fuck with the white boy
Dre I'm crying in this booth
You saved my life, now maybe its my turn to save yours
But I can never repay you, what you did for me is way more
But I aint giving up faith and you aint giving up on me
Get up Dre, I'm dying I need you, come back for fuck's sake 'cause ,

[Chorus]
I'm about to lose my mind
You've been gone for so long
I'm running out of time
I need a doctor
Call me a doctor
I need a doctor, doctor
To bring me back to life

Bring me back to life
Bring me back to life
(I need a doctor, doctor
To bring me back to life)

[Dr Dre]
It literally feels like a lifetime ago
But I still remember the shit like it was just yesterday though
You walked in, yellow jump suit
Whole room, cracked jokes
Once you got inside the booth, told you, like smoke
Went through friends, some of them I put on
But they just left, they said they was riding to the death
But where the fuck are they now?
Now that I need them I don't see none of them
All I see is Slim
Fuck all you fair-weather friends
All I need is him
Fucking backstabbers
When the chips were down you just laughed at us
Now you 'bout to feel the fucking wrath of Aftermath, faggots
You goin' see us in our lab jackets and ask us where the fuck we been?
You can kiss my indecisive ass crack maggots and the crackers ass
Little Cracker Jack beat making wack math,
Backwards producers, Im back bastards
One more CD and then I'm packing up my bags and as I'm leaving
I'll guarantee they scream Dre don't leave us like that man cause ,

[Chorus]
I'm about to lose my mind
You've been gone for so long
I'm running out of time
I need a doctor
Call me a doctor
I need a doctor, doctor
To bring me back to life
Bring me back to life
Bring me back to life

waiting is torture. hahaha!

2011-08-24T13:30:00.000+08:00

Everytime my phones vibrate, I wished it was you. I dun want to be the one who always start the conversation and end up becoming like a irritating pest.

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Lady Antebellum - Need You Now

Picture perfect memories, scattered all around the floor.
Reaching for the phone cause, I can't fight it any more.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.
For me it happens all the time.

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now.
I said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now.

Another shot of whiskey, can't stop looking at the door.
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.
For me it happens all the time.

It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now.
I said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now.

I guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all.

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now.
And I said I wouldn't call, but I'm a little drunk and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now.

I just need you now.

Oh baby I need you now.

if you're not ready, i'll wait till you are... =)

2011-08-22T20:18:00.002+08:00

it's been a long time since i last liked somebody this deep. haha. though we only met once, but we knew each other since 14 years ago. fate brought her to me and through texting alone, i started to grew feelings for her. i know she just ended a relationship just early this year, and she is not ready for another one soon, so i'm not gonna rush it. anyway i also feel just texting is enough. i haven't let her know about my feelings yet, but i think its already quite obvious already, if she don't get it, i dunno what to say. failed attempts in trying to ask her out, but i know is because of her busy schedules. december please come soon because we will be very free then. =) though i like her, but i wish we can know each other better first before i start to do anything stupid. so i'll try to ask her out when there is a chance. 5052453 are quite concern about my love life, i understand. whether this will be a success or another failure don't matter to me. i faced too many failures and is numb already. right now i'm just playing it step by step, and i'm more than happy enough just by receiving text from her. haha. but if she feels it and if she is not interested with me at all, i do hope that she should let me know so it wouldn't affect me so much. But for now, when nothing is told, i shall wait for the right moment... =)

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Backstreet Boys - I'll Never Break Your Heart

(Spoken)
Baby I know your hurting
Right now you feel like you could never love again
Now all I ask is for a chance
To prove that I love you

From the first day
That I saw your smiling face
Honey, I knew that we would be together forever
Ooh when I asked you out
You said no but I found out
Darling that you'd been hurt
You felt that you'd never love again
I deserve a try honey just once
Give me a chance and I'll prove this all wrong
You walked in you were so quick to judge
But honey he's nothing like me

(Chorus)
I'll never break your heart
I'll never make you cry
I'd rather die than live without you
I'll give you all of me
Honey that's no lie (2x)

As time goes by you
will get to know me
A little more better
Girl that's the way love goes
And I know you're afraid (Know your afraid)
To let you're feelings show (feelings show)
And I understand
But girl it's time to let go
I deserve a try honey
Just once
Give me a chance and I'll prove this all wrong
You walked in you were so quick to judge
But honey he's nothing like me
Darling why can't you see

(Chorus (2x))

(Bridge)
No way, no how
I'll never make you cry (2x)

(Chorus)

Few months no update, one week of full fun, now back to reality..

2011-08-09T22:34:00.002+08:00

Wow! I know i haven't been updating this blog much.. I'm just too lazy.. Well.. Summarised in short: Finished my job in SGH, found a job in KTPH, finished my job in KTPH, got enrolled into NUS part time engineering course (Electronic Engineering) and found another new job working at MOE as IT again... Ok.. thats what I've been up to...

Well, this post will be mostly on my trip with my best buddies in Penang and Malacca. A lot of FUNS and some displeasure with somebody. Negative points first, then end with positive points....

Yes! This guy, we call him Human AI... I dunno if he really has no common sense or what or just plain stupid. He can be really damn smart in his studies, in his IT skills, but I dun understand how come he doesn't have the most basic common sense. 24 year old adult already, we all need to treat him like a 5 year old kid. He can get lost like SO MANY TIMES! Jonker street dunno how many times, A Famosa.... Its like bringing some kid on an excursion. Hello! We are in another country, if you need to go somewhere like the toilet, at least let someone know! The way you say you are going to the toilet...... WHO THE HELL WILL KNOW?! WTF, turn your head and mumbled... who the hell will hear you?! At least get someone to acknowledge first ma! Wah lao.. And dunno how you can become sergeant in army.. Physically wise, you really cannot make it. Its really a disgrace when we are all eating nice cakes and you doze off, and DROOL! Satay Lok Lok too!!! Fed up, even OLP ask henry to send you back hotel to go have you beauty sleep. Henry Lee treat you so good, you go post something on Facebook and shoot him. WTF! Not only that, he even BROUGHT HARDDISK to the trip when he didn't bring laptop. WTF?! Coincidentally, there is computer in the guesthouse.. if not i dunno wtf you bring you HDD for. You only get alive when there is Wi-Fi area... WTF, you know internet at home issit? Need to find Wi-Fi all around Malaysia... And he's damn rude.... I remember in a shop where the place is cramped, and this uncle is pushing a baby on a stroller towards his direction because he want to go and see the shirts... instead of JUST go to somewhere and allow him to past, he MUST shout "WAH LAO" so loudly and then move. WTF! The uncle still need to apologise! I also dunno what's wrong with your brain, once there is an item each on both of your hands, we give you another thing to take, you can go super super super confused. WTF!!!! Not only this, when you eat, the food nice or not nice, you HAVE TO give those super weird expressions! SO is it nice or not?! You climbed Penang Hill and you sweated so much, the next day you wear the same shirt.... WTF! Ya... and with all this, there will never ever be another overseas trip with you anymore. No more!! (Anyway, I'm not getting excited or angry or what.. all the anger all keep in malaysia liao, i just say things to shoot him only.. HAHAHA!)

Ok! now for the good things but I gotta cut it short cause its late... 5052453! Wonderful time spent with you guys! Thank you Ong Lok Ping for planning this trip!!! HAHA! First ever plane ride of my life! Absolutely fantastic! The clouds are so nice!

Penang, first day.. SUPER GOOD FOOD at Chai Leng Park!! Bak Kut Teh, Fried Oysters, Wan Ton Mee... Wah, the Wan Ton Mee is really really so damn nice that I dun want to taste any other Wan Ton Mee in Singapore sia!! The noodles so Q until WHOA!!

2nd day: Flea Market, Snake Temple, War Museum (we had lots of fun there with lots of photos! :D), PARASAILING (this is damn fun!!! Boat pull you while you parachutes in the air!), SEVEN HEAVEN Seafood Platter!!! Night market and Body Massage.. HAHA! Adrian's de massage was really a bad one..

3rd day: Penang Hill.. Lots of Pictures taken... Kek Lo Si Temple (I prayed for many many many things..... hopefully god will hear my prayers... and this is the time i really burnt the most joss sticks in one day.), Gurney Drive Hawker Centre.. They say there are alot of nice foods.. but i dun think as nice as in Chai Leng Park!

4th day: George Town... Mostly walk shopping centres.. actually nothing much to buy de... at night bus to Malacca..

5th day: Reached Malacca 6.30am.. Went to Cafe1511 (its a guesthouse..) and the owner is very good! He let us rest and let us use the toilets and bath even before we checked in. After that, we went to Baba Nyonya Heritage Museum... Its right beside Cafe 1511 because Cafe1511 is the 3rd house of the Museum. There is alot to learn for the history.. Henry joined us after that for Chicken rice.. hmmm.. okok only.. Then we had Durian Chendol.. Next went to Maritime & Naval Museum.. Then had special cakes at Mille Crepe.. The thousand layer cakes are really good! We watched full view of Malacca at Menara Taming Sari tower and dinner.... SATAY LOK LOK!! SUPER NICE ESP WITH THE Fried You Tiao!!!

6th day: A Famosa!!! SUPER SUPER FUN!!! We had so much fun and laughter! Had dinner at Back Alley.. The hum and lala very nice! Bunga Raya fried Oyster is still not as good as the one in Chai Leng Park.. Then we went Jonkers Street recee.. Then we celebrated Henry's birthday at a pub nearby. Ice wine broken because of Jiawen... Haiz... At the pub, they asked me some things... Well, the way they ask really funny la.. but then I must say, nothing has developed so far... Still at first stage of Rasengan.. LOL! The burst water balloon de.. I let you all know when I reach the 2nd stage (the burst rubber ball), then 3rd stage (Burst air balloon) and hopefully I can master the Rasengan! (I know you all know what I am talking.) Hopefully I can master la. =)

7th day: Shopping all the way... Bought lots of clothes.. hahahaha.. The whole day was spent on shopping alone and dinner at Jonker Street.. So much food and so much clothes to buy! Some dun have fate with me.. I like but no size..

Last day: Last shopping! And back to Singapore by bus.. BTR, SBS.. Back To Reality, Sibeh Sian.. Haha..

Hmm... For pictures, you can go to my Facebook to post... I dun have original photos to post here. Lol.. Well, gotta go sleep le, tml is my first day of work, and need to wake up early... Ciaoz!

I love 5052453!! HUAT AR!

(OLP: you love this song.. this song is dedicated to you!!)

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LMFAO - Party Rock Anthem

PARTY ROCK
Yeah
Wooo!!!!
LETS GO!!

Party rock is in the house tonight
Everybody just have a good time
And we gonna make you lose your mind
Everybody just have a good time [X2]

We just wanna see yaa!

Shake That !

In the, club party rock look up on your girl
She on my jock non stop when we in the spot
Booty move away like she on the block
What the track I gots to know
Top jeans tatto cause I'm rock and roll
Half black half white diamino
Gain the money, out the door

Yoooo!!
I'm runnin through these hoes like drano
I got that devilish flow rock and roll no halo
We party rock yea! that's the crew that I'm reppin
On the rise to the top no led in our zeppelin
Hey!!!
Party rock is in the house tonight
Everybody just have a good time
And we gonna make you lose your mind
Everybody just have a good time [X2]

We just wanna see yaa!

Everyday I'm shuffelin

Shuffelin shuffelin

Step up fast and be the first girl to make me throw this cash
We get money don't be mad now stop hatein is bad

One more shot for us
Another round
Please fill up my cup
Don't mess around
We just wanna see
You shake it now
Now you wanna be
Your naked now

Get up get down put your hands up to the sun [X3]
Put your hands up to the sun [X2]
Get up [X9]
Put your hands up to the sun
To the sun
Put your hands up !!!!!

Party rock is in the house tonight
Everybody just have a good time
And we gonna make you lose your mind
Everybody just have a good good good time

Ohhhhh!!Ohhhhhh!!!Ohhhhhh!!!Ohhh!

So, what's my talent?

2011-07-10T23:51:00.002+08:00

everyone will have a talent.
but i lived 23 years
i never seem to find one in me...

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Keane - Somewhere Only We Know

I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete

Oh, simple thing where have you gone ?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of ?

Oh simple thing, where have you gone ?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
And if you have a minute, why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know ?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go somewhere only we know ?
Somewhere only we know

Oh simple thing, where have you gone ?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
And if you have a minute, why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know ?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go, so why don't we go ?
HmmmaaaAAAA.....Ahhhoooooo....
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go somewhere only we know ?
Somewhere only we know, somewhere only we know.

Happy Valentines~!! ♥

2011-02-15T00:48:00.001+08:00

Hello people! Happy Valentines Day!! To the couples, I hope you enjoyed.. To the singles, 孤单万岁!! Yeah, being single means you are still having your freedom, but that doesn't meant you should not keep searching for the right one. To those who think being single is a lonely thing, please don't! True, most of us do feel we always need someone's company especially when you reach a certain age, but that doesn't mean you should pick someone off the street and declare, "Hey! He/She is my gf/bf!" We still have our friends and family, right?!

Well, like I said, its good to be single, but that doesn't mean that you shouldn't be searching because we still need a partner to stay with us till we are old. But not all people have the courage to speak up and normally will just end up letting go. I'm one of those people. Well, I'm actually kinda inspired for the prologue of Taylor Swift's album, Speak Now. It kinda of encourage us to speak up. Here is the prologue and I hope it actually inspire most of you:

"'Speak now or forever hold your peace,' the words said by preachers at the end of wedding ceremonies all over the world, right before the vows. It's a last chance for protest, a moment that makes everyone's heart race, and a moment I've always been strangely fascinated by. So many fantasize about bursting into a church, saying what they'd kept inside for years like in the movies. In real life, it rarely happens.

Real life is a funny thing, you know. In real life, saying the right thing at the right moment is beyond crucial. So crucial, in fact, that most of us start to hesitate, for fear of saying the wrong thing at the wrong time. But lately what I've begun to fear more than that is letting the moment pass without saying anything.

I think most of us fear reaching the end of our life, and looking back regretting the moment we didn't speak up. When we didn't say 'I love you.' When we should've said 'I'm sorry.' When we didn't stand up for ourselves or someone who needed help.

These songs are made up of words I didn't say when the moment was right in front of me. These songs are open letters. Each written with a specific person in mind, telling them what I meant to tell them in person. To the beautiful boy whose heart I broke in December. To my first love who I never thought would be my first heartbreak. To my band. o a mean man I used to be afraid of. To someone who made my world dark for a while. To a girl who stole something of mine. To someone I forgive for what he said in front of the whole world.

Words can break someone into a million pieces, but they can also put them back together. I hope you use yours for good, because the only words you'll regret more than the ones left unsaid are the ones you use to intentionally hurt someone.

What you say might be too much for some people. Maybe it will come out all wrong and you'll stutter and you'll walk away embarrassed, wincing as you play it all back in your head. But I think the words you stop yourself from saying are the ones that will haunt you the longest.

So say it to them. Or say it to yourself in the mirror. Say it in a letter you'll never send or in a book millions might read someday. I think you deserve to look back on your life without a chorus of resounding voices saying 'I could've, but it's too late now.'

There is a time for silence. There is a time waiting your turn. But if you know how you feel, and you so clearly know what you need to say, you'll know it.

I don't think you should wait. I think you should speak now.

Love, Taylor"

Extracted in full, not a single punctuation is missed. And I find it rather true. So to those guys who has someone in mind, speak now. Like what Lokping posted on his Facebook wall: "you shld be proud of who you are, confident of who you are! even if they try to defame you, tarnish your reputation, destroy you! DOESN'T NOT MATTER! Because you know those are LIES! if you wanna be LOVE, you must DARE TO LOVE FIRST!"

And for me, when I have a target in mind in the future........ I try la.. HAHA!

Though this inspired me, I still don't think I'll be the kind who will speak up. I'm not a man of words, nor am I a man of action (I think). I'm always playing the waiting game. Perhaps I've been hurt a few times in the past (through rejections) and most of the times we almost aren't even friends. This one's from my cousin's Facebook and I found it quite true too.

"很多的感情，都因为一厢情愿，最后连朋友都当不成了，常常觉得惋惜，可惜一些本来很好的友情，最后却因为对方的一句喜欢你，如果你没有反应，这一段友情似乎也难以维持下去，这也难怪有些人会因此不肯踏出这一步。因为这就像是一场赌注，表白了之后不是成了男女朋友，要不就连朋友都当不成了。有些事不是你能预料的，或许对方不在意，你们还可以是朋友，但却已经不如从前的好。也是可惜，也是遗憾！但还有没有可能是另一种情况，你可能永远都不甘心只是朋友. . . . ."

It's very true. Not that I want to pour cold water after giving hopes from the previous extract. I mean, this kinda thing often happen to me alone. I think most of the people will handle it better than I do. Ya, actually is how you handle it. Well, glad to say, in the end, all of the past things are over and most of us are friends again.

I very seldom talk about my past, only a handful of people knows them and only a couple of them knows the full story. Those moments are why I'm always afraid, and always, always see the person I liked go with another guy and it's been like this until I felt so numb that I can even give up on my feelings easily. Seriously! But I'm still waiting for that right person who share my views and etc.. I'll wait slowly because I want to get the correct one. Haha.

Well, as for now, I'll enjoy single life and when the time comes (I hope not so soon yet, SERIOUSLY!), I'll cherished that person and she'll be part of my life. HAPPY VALENTINES' DAY!!! Ooops, its past 12am already.

P.S. OLP!!! Don't say I never do homework! LONG ENOUGH OK!!! WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

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Lyrics of Post

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Taylor Swift - Speak Now

I am not the kind of girl
Who should be rudely barging in on a white veil occasion
But you are not the kind of boy
Who should be marrying the wrong girl

I sneak in and see your friends
And her snotty little family all dressed in pastel
And she is yelling at a bridesmaid
Somewhere back inside a room
Wearing a gown shaped like a pastry

This is surely not what you thought it would be
I lose myself in a daydream
Where I stand and say

Don't say yes, run away now
I'll meet you when you're out of the church at the back door
Don't wait, or say a single vow
You need to hear me out
And they said speak now

Fond gestures are exchanged
And the organ starts to play
A song that sounds like a death march
And I am hiding in the curtains
It seems I was uninvited by your lovely bride to be

She floats down the aisle like a pageant queen
But I know you wish it was me,
You wish it was me
Don't you?

Don't say yes, run away now
I'll meet you when you're out of the church at the back door
Don't wait, or say a single vow
You need to hear me out
And they said speak now

Don't say yes, run away now
I'll meet you when you're out of the church at the back door
Don't wait, or say a single vow
Your time is running out
And they said speak now

Ooh, la la

Ooh, ooh

I hear the preacher say speak now or forever hold your peace
There's the silence, there's my last chance
I stand up with shaky hands, all eyes on me
Horrified looks from everyone in the room
But I'm only looking at you

I'm not the kind of girl
Who should be rudely barging in on a white veil occasion
But you are not the kind of boy
Who should be marrying the wrong girl

So don't say yes, run away now
I'll meet you when you're out of the church at the back door
Don't wait, or say a single vow
You need to hear me out
And they said speak now

And you'll say let's run away now
I'll meet you when I'm out of my tux at the back door
Baby, I didn't say my vows
So glad you were around
When they said speak now

Post of the new year

2011-02-08T23:00:00.005+08:00

Hey hey people! Happy 2011 (I know its freaking late!) and Happy Chinese New Year!!! Wahahaha. I have left this blog collecting dust until OLP ask me to do some spring cleaning to this blog. I promise him I will update, so here it is, an update!

Anyway, I always wanted to do some blogging as I have like A LOT of things to update but too bad I'm getting very lazy. Well, Chinese New Year, hope everybody had enjoyed the long holidays collecting angbaos and playing ban luck. My Chinese New Year was pretty decent. In Malaysia from CNY's eve till 初三.. First few days was very boring as there is practically nobody to talk with. Slept whole day. Cousins were all to young, not my age gap. The one who is of my age gap is either busy or have not come due to they bai nian at their father side first. Haha. 初二 when they came, finally have activity. Karaoake for 3 hours, at night still go watch movie. Homecoming is not bad, worth to watch. Ohoh! By the way, as usual, every time, by the time its Chinese New Year, there's always fireworks (that's the reason for the song of the post).. very nice.. but this year not so nice. Not many people putting leh. I also for the first time lighted a 孔明灯! Yeah!

Sunday went Wenting's house for bai nian. Then went Bedok to bai nian with my Ah Gong. Damn, missed the Lion Dance which my cousin performed. Have to wait till next year. He controlled Lion Head sia. My Ban luck's luck is so-so this year. My In-Between luck is bad. Haha. Nevertheless, we had fun.

Well, start of this year already have a highlight. I finished my contract with IBM @ SGH. Though I'm pretty happy working there because of some of my colleagues and the users, I am super unhappy with how the management managed things. Yes, go anywhere also the management will suck to an extend. But this project, really dunno what to say. My team is treated like dog. Everything also we do. Not our jobscope also we kio. Haiz.. No wonder one by one all throw resignation letter. Left Jian Cun there, I very sad. Hope he's doing fine. I really wanted to help him, but I super don't like the management and one colleague there. Super chao keng. At first I did not want to cold war with him. I know I dun like him, but I still can work with him because I feel is better to work together until he did something to activate the bomb. He planned things without letting us know and blamed us. From then on, my limit for him is damn low. Show him who's the boss. Honestly speaking, why his job so easy is all because there's me. Really. I did almost everything for him. And... well, its over.. Not gonna talk about this anymore... Anyway, farewell wasn't a great feeling. Really didn't wish to leave Jian Cun alone inside but no choice, have to move on.

Another farewell was the departure of my good friend who went to Australia to study for 1 year. She won't be back in Singapore until next year. Too bad I couldn't see her off on her departure day as I was in Malaysia. That's why I met up with her twice for her farewell.. Both with LIA. Even made a card (I'm super satisfied with the end product) for her as an apology for not being able to see her off. The third time, went near her place to take photos. She owed me damn long. The LIA reccees and other outings. Still owe me my Science center one!! Anyway, have fun studying in Australia, Rachel!!

Applied for NTU's EEE. Hope to get in. Mixed feeling when I applied. I just only brushed through my Poly, can I make it in Uni? Everything in Poly I throw back. Most of the things after year 2.2, I dun understand. Can I really make it? Gotta do some revision...

And ya, TIME TO START RUNNING!! I GOTTA LOSE FATS!!! Train for Sundown!!! SOMEBODY, TRAIN WITH ME!!!!!! But still, I need to find job. Still searching... Hope to get a good temp job.. =)

OKAY! Will post again soon. OLP!! Nah! Updated post for you.. LONG LONG ONE!!! Hahahaha...

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Lyrics of Post

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Katy Perry - Firework

Do you ever feel like a plastic bag,
drifting through the wind
wanting to start again?
Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
like a house of cards,
one blow from caving in?

Do you ever feel already buried deep?
6 feet under screams but no one seems to hear a thing
Do you know that there's still a chance for you
'Cause there's a spark in you

You just gotta ignite, the light, and let it shine
Just own the night like the 4th of July

'Cause baby you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh"
You're gonna leave 'em falling down-own-own

You don't have to feel like a waste of space
You're original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow

Maybe your reason why all the doors are closed
So you could open one that leads you to the perfect road
Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow
And when it's time, you'll know

You just gotta ignite, the light, and let it shine
Just own the night like the 4th of July

'Cause baby you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, Oh, Oh"
You're gonna leave 'em falling down-own-own

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It's always been inside of you, you, you
And now it's time to let it through-ough-ough

'Cause baby you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go "Oh, Oh, Oh"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, Oh, Oh" (Oh, Oh, Oh)
You're gonna leave 'em falling down-own-own (Oh, Oh, Oh)

Boom, boom, boom (Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh)
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon

I miss my friends...

2010-09-27T00:10:00.000+08:00

Here to clear the dust. Haha. Past few weeks, doing the same things.. Work, work work... OT, OT, OT. Every since i start working, I have not really seen my friends already. Now they start school, I dun even hear from them sometimes. When not once, but twice, i thought i could meet one of them, but in the end.. still didnt meet. Couple of weeks ago, ask Ben go with me to Comex IT fair. In the end he forgot, and went with JJ and OLP on thurs. So sat went alone. 2 weeks ago, JJ told me will run AHM with me, won't pang seh me one.. In the end, I still ran alone... Honestly speaking, I am very disappoint for both times but I still have to understand, they are really stressed with their studies. I can't let them sacrifice their studies becos of me. So of course i am not angry with them for this. Even in the future, they do it again for the sake of study, i will never blame them though i will be disappointed. But I will promised not to blame them or get angry with them. =)

Today just met with JJ and Ben, together with co-op gang. They are stressed. Ben's white hair are growing already. LOL! I wish them all the best. Haven't seen Nopie, Yuli and Jonathan for a long time too, ever since we celebrated Yuli's birthday. Its like 2 months plus. Great to see them. =)

Well, something somewhat spoilt the gathering a little which I am not going to mention what. For me to know, and there's no need to find out. In summary, I itchy hand go put my finger in the trigger and misfired. Felt so sorry and apologetic. I will never hold the weapon ever again...

Now left is OLP. Haven't seen him every since he started school too. Friday he wanted to meet us for movie and dinner, but I have OT and the movie he wanted to watch clashed with the movie of my gathering. So sorry. Really hope to see him again and hear his good advise from him. haha. In summary, i really miss my Alpha, i-Team friends! ADRIAN NG! I haven't forget about you! A few times you want to click with me. But really the few times I really got things to do. But next week onwards, I will try to do lesser OT, and if got time, you jio me click, i will click with you! =)

Oh ya, this current song is currently my favourite song! I LOVE EMINEM! Dun worry, I'm not gay. haha. Adrian asked me, why I like Eminem so much. I haven't answer his question. If he happen to read this, here's the answer. He put his feelings into the songs he wrote. You can really feel it when you listen to it. You can even imagine it. Some of them are real life situations. Sometimes the songs give you an adrenaline rush. The ones can tamper with your feelings. The songs he wrote are like so alive! That's why! Hope that answer the question. Haha.

Ok, its getting a bit late. Actually wanted to share about my current job but feel lazy. Therefore, I might share another day. Till then, cya! =)

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Lyrics of the post

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Eminem ft. Rihanna - Love The Way You Like

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

I can't tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now there's a steel knife
In my windpipe
I can't breathe
But I still fight
While I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right
It's like I'm in flight
High of a love
Drunk from the hate
It's like I'm huffin' paint
And I love it the more that I suffer
I suffocate
And right before im about to drown
She resuscitates me
She fucking hates me
And I love it

Wait
Where you going
I'm leaving you
No you ain't
Come back
We're running right back
Here we go again
It's so insane
Cause when it's going good
It's going great
I'm Superman
With the wind at his back
She's Louis Lane
But when it's bad
It's awful
I feel so ashamed
I snap
Who's that dude
I don't even know his name
I laid hands on him
I'll never stoop so low again
I guess I don't know my own strength

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie, I love the way you lie

You ever love somebody so much
You can barely breathe
When you're with them
You meet
And neither one of you
Even know what hit 'em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling
Yeah them chills
Used to get 'em
Now you're getting fucking sick
Of looking at 'em
You swore you've never hit 'em

Never do nothing to hurt 'em
Now you're in each other's face
Spewing venom in your words when you spit 'em
You push, pull each other's hair
Scratch, claw, bit 'em
Throw 'em down
Pin 'em
So lost in the moments
When you're in 'em
It's a race that's the culprit controls your boat
So they say it's best
To go your separate ways

Guess that they don't know ya
Cause today
That was yesterday
Yesterday is over
It's a different day
Sound like broken records
Playing' over
But you promised her
Next time you'll show restraint
You don't get another chance
Life is no Nintendo game
But you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave
Out the window
Guess that's why they call it window pane

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie, I love the way you lie

Now I know we said things
Did things
That we didn't mean
And we fall back
Into the same patterns
Same routine
But your temper's just as bad
As mine is
You're the same as me
But when it comes to love

You're just as blinded
Baby please come back
It wasn't you
Baby it was me
Maybe our relationship
Isn't as crazy as it seems
Maybe that's what happens
When a tornado meets a volcano
ll I know is
I love you too much
To walk away though
Come inside
Pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don't you hear sincerity
In my voice when I talk
Told you this is my fault
Look me in the eyeball
Next time I'm pissed
I'll lay my fist
At the dry wall
Next time
There will be no next time
I apologize
Even though I know it's lies
I'm tired of the games
I just want her back
I know I'm a liar
If she ever tries to fuckin' leave again
I'ma tie her to the bed
And set this house on fire (Just gonna)

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry

But that's alright because I love the way you lie

I love the way you lie, I love the way you lie

Hold on!

2010-08-15T19:39:00.002+08:00

Saw Lokping's blog and was really glad that I had a friend who thought of me. Quoted from his blog: "What happen my poly mates. Everyone is getting busy ya, we kind of left kaihoow out, ben and jj have their own girlfriends, and i kinda of playing with my other friends. and kaihoow kinda of standing alone. He need support my friends. maybe let fork out sometime and click with him okay!"

True enough I have been alone ever since I started working. My working life has not been really good. But I have a few good colleagues to help me just that the one I am learning from hasn't really teach me properly. Get scolded for things I never learn. All these while, couldn't even find time to talk. Too tired. But at least Lokping would show some concern, msn me to ask about my job. Though I am standing alone, I know that when I need help, I have my Alpha friends to back me up. They have their commitments. Ben and JJ are working for YOG. They have girlfriends to commit also. Meeting up with them are getting lesser. That's why when I go out with them, I really treasure the time spent. These friends are now my only companions already.

Maybe it's time I really need find myself a partner, like what Lokping says. He gave a very funny suggestion, that is to go and make friends with the nurses. Zzzzzzz... Its not that I dun want. Everything all needs fate. Though I like to have companions, its not only girls who can accompany me, any friends also can accompany me what! A good clicking session, a Kopi meetup, Roti-prata meetup also very good. Girlfriends can still wait. I am still young, there's no need for me to rush into a R/S. I am taking my time to choose the right one. I am not the kind who will like a girl after knowing her for just 2 weeks when I still dunno anything about her. But its also not that I'm not open to any options. Just that the right one haven't arrive yet but I'm never desperate to be into a R/S.

After reading Lokping's blog about me, I promise, even if I'm alone, I will still hold on no matter what happen because I know that my friends will be there supporting me. I'm really glad to have friends like them. They are my motivation, this includes any other friends who are there to cheer me on. Thank you! =)

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Good Charlotte - Hold On

this world, this world is cold
but you dont ,you dont have to go
youre feeling sad your feeling lonely and no one seems to care
you mothers gone and youre father hits you
this pain you cannot bare

but we all bleed the same way that you do
we have the same things to go thru
hold on if you feel like letting go
hold on it gets better than you know

your days you say their way to long
and your nights you cant sleep at all
and your not sure what your looking for
but you dont want to no more

but we all bleed the same way that you do
and we all have the same things to go thru
hold on if you feel like letting go
hold on it gets better than you knoe

dont stop looking your one step closer
dont stop searching its not over......hold on

what are you looking for
what are you waiting for
do you know what your doing to me
go ahead....what are you waiting for
hold on...if you feel like letting go
hold on..it gets better than you know
dont stop looking your one step closer
dont stop searching its not over....hold on

Bitches and Gentlemen

2010-07-26T03:39:00.000+08:00

Hmmm.. dunno how long will I update again after this. I'm starting work soon. Tuesday is the day. I'm not least excited because that means my relax time is over. I dread working. But then again, earning money is more important. After 1 month almost 2 job seeking, I finally found one, 8 to 6, $1400 pathetic 6-month contract job. At least its a job. Working at SGH, not as nurse, but for the IT part of the hospital. The company is IBM. The name very special, IMAC coordinator. I dunno what it means. haha. So, this is brief intro of what's happening to me.

People ask me why I dun want to study or go part-time study. Honestly speaking, I dunno the answer myself. But i do know that, I am taking one step at a time. I am still looking at the options that I can make.

1) Work, work, and work forever, and ever, and ever.
2) Work 1- 2 years, Study full time, Courses of my Diploma, EEE perhaps?
3) Work 1 - 2 years, Study full time, try different course
4) Part time studies

But part time studies is not my cup of tea. I am sure I won't be able to cope working and studying together. So probably I won't go for this option. I need to concentrate fully on study itself. I do not like to be in a situation when you have to meet up for project meetings and you keep missing the meetings because of work. The team do well, you score without doing anything. The team do badly, you are one of the reason because you did not contribute. So, I'm still looking at what I can do. Perhaps, maybe its due to financial problem. I know there's something call Bank Loan. But my situation is this, my brother is now studying in Poly. My Sister most likely going Poly next year. She also needs bank loan. And if I goes to Uni in this period, it'll be damn bad. Imagine a family having to pay 3 school fees and my dad only earns less than $2300/mth and still need to pay the stupid gahment taxes, rents, and all sort of things. So finance is definitely a problem. Might as well work first, help in our family situation and see what's the next step. Help my siblings path a way first.

Cousin (Matt) from malaysia came over on friday. He was invited to my Grandfather's 80th birthday celebration. My Grandpa and Grandma were invited too. That night, Matt, my other cousin (Andrew) who lives near me, and myself met in Yew Tee for a meetup session. Their topics never fail to interest me. Both of them 25, so I'm most junior among them. Though I only sit there and listen, occasionally giving some of my thoughts, I always liked how they get involved in one topic. How they agree with each other. Most of the time we meet up will chat about relationship topics. And this time its the same. And everytime we meet up, the contents to this topic normally is different. Very interesting to listen to them.

We also talked about why girls are so complicated. A girl can treat her friends very well, but when it comes to a relationship, that girl becomes unreasonable, overbearing, and all sorts of problems comes in. Matt is a good problem solver for people, and Andrew himself is also very good in this kind of things. Well, though i listen, i liked, but i'm as forgetful as always. So i dun really remember alot of what they say. But main point they made to each other, and to the learning me, who will help solve my friends' problem, that girls have to be treated really differently.

Though I really agree the way they say, but I still think somethings are really unfair. I seen a lot of relationships, a lot of things happen. I've listened to many stories. Though I didnt really help a lot of my friends, but I think I helped as a listener. Guys friends, girl friends, all sort of stories. But always I listen, I feel girls themselves are a problem. Ok, not all, but most and I'm not being bias or sexism or whatever.

First thing first, I dun understand why girls get mad at their boyfriends over those niggling small problems. Small problem become big problem. When one gets angry over little problems once in a while, its ok. But its a problem when everything your partner do is a problem. Everything your partner do is wrong. That's a problem. And then it leads to another problem. When the guy ask, what is the problem, the girl says no problem or nothing. No problem, but the face as black as Justice Bao. So no problem right? The guy says something, the girl ignore. The guy ask something, the girl says nothing. Then this leads to a bigger problem.

1) The guy, seeing the girl like that, stop talking. Then the girl start to make noise. Once the girl make noise, nothing good is going to happen. She will then quarrel with you. Ask why the guy not caring, ask why the guy doesn't understand her. Hello, what you want the guy to do? You dun tell him anything, you think he know what you are thinking? So you think all couples are all borned with the brain nerves attached wirelessly and what you thinking is what he is thinking? Come on! Communicate! Be more straightforward la. Got problem say so la. Put yourself into their shoes, if guys do the same thing to you, what will you think? Probably you think the guy is petty. It that makes you happy...

2) The guy gets irritated, starts to quarrel. Scolds the girl, say no problem why still black face? Girls argues back. Same thing, say guy not caring, not understanding. Ok, guys at fault for starting the quarrel. Well, whoever starts the quarrel is at fault IMO. But same thing, from what i feel, in relationship, communication is important. By communicate, each party will know what each other is thinking. Then, it will lead to understanding between each other. Understanding takes time to build up. You are not your girlfriend's father NOR you are your boyfriend's mother. Some parents, after living so long together dun even understand their kids. Maybe i havent been in a r/s before. So I won't know. But from what i see, and hear, communication is really important. You have problem? Sit down, talk it out peacefully. Compromise. Both side must be willing to listen to each other point of view. If the either side fails to agree, or fails to compromise and goes into a rage, I dun think he/she is good enough to be in any kind of r/s. And like my cousins say, dun keep quiet to a problem. Just like keeping a problem in a safe, and pretend nothing happen. Its not good. Whenever there is a problem, solve it asap. Dun leave them hanging. Oh ya, you can judge whether or not this is true: "A relationship which is way too peaceful, without quarrels, is a problem. It is healthy to have occasional debates, or quarrels." For me, I do think is true. Nobody in the world is perfect in anyway. So a r/s shouldn't be that perfect. Unless the both of you are from Jupiter coming to Earth to live. But quarreling too often is a problem.

I also hate girls who think they are princess once they are in a r/s. If you want to be a princess, please go to Ancient China. Thank you. I think in a r/s, guys should not give in too much to the girl. Ya, girls may think, "NNB, sibeh ungentleman leh you" Go and think lor. You should be a guy for one year, and have a princess girlfriend and see if you can last that one year. Yes i know, a lot of guys do give in to their gfs. But that's a problem. This kind of girls will take everything for granted, and their demands get higher and higher. She climbs to the guy's head, install a remote control, and controls him. Becomes unreasonable. If your gf is like this, please talk to her. Though talking is no use. Too late. Girls all the more cannot give in too much to guys. Most guys already have those take it for granted attitude, and if you give in to them, you are walking yourself to hell. If girls gives in too much, they will be mistreated. Worst case, if girls meed bad boys, well, the result always shows 9 months later. So, guys dun give in, girls dun give in... then what? I'm not saying DUN GIVE IN TOTALLY. I'm saying dun give in too much... IMO, there should be a fair balance of giving in bah.

Then there are some girls who think they should be placed NUMBER 1 in their partner's heart. He must accompany her EVERYDAY! Worst still, every hour, every minute. Okay, that's exaggeration. So, you think your guyfriend is a loner? He has no father no mother? No friends? Unless you the wife, or else dun expect too much. If you want company from you partner like every 2nd, simple, use DOUBLE SIDED M2 TAPE, USE Alcohol to clean the surface of you and your partner's back, and stick yourself to him. He'll carry you everywhere he go. DOUBLE SIDED M2 TAPE + Alcohol, EVEN STRONGER THAN USING SCREW! Want to take out also difficult! Same goes for guys who expect the girl to accompany her. Seriously speaking, if you want company everyday, GET MARRIED LA! Tio bo? You have family, your group of friends. Your partner too. Think about it yourself la, you have a best friend, maybe 14 to 15 years. Your r/s is only 2 to 3 years old. Worst, your parents are with you throughout your whole lifetime until now. Are you going to give up ur friends and family just for ur partner? Honestly speaking la, friends and family will probably be the ones listening and helping with your problems but not the partner solving each other problem. Most of the time, the problems is due to that r/s. So which side is more closer bond? You decide.

More dislike is you are in a gathering with a group of friends. And the couples all hog onto each other leaving the other single friends there to watch. It will be even worst, if you are 1 person and wherever you look, up down left right front back center are all couple couple. And they just stick to each other like they are super glued to each other, leaving that one poor fellow behind, watching them in envy... ok, in disgust i mean, being ignored and isolated. Worst thing, that poor fellow are friends with EVERYBODY and even if he was kidnapped in front of everyone, nobody will notice. You know? This kind of situation. I dun understand, couples themselves meet out all the times. Talk on the phone almost everyday. And when there is a group gathering, you still need to stick together? Hence, I will vow, if ever i have a girlfriend but never a boyfriend, I will, in no circumstances, pang seh my friends just because of girlfriend, especially in a group gathering, WITH MY LIFE! LOL!! Also for me will be, whoever made plans with me1st, or i plan to meet who, then i will meet that person. Like first come first serve basis unless there is a change in plan, or cancel of event or that event is really a important one, like birthday celebration all these. Like for example, future gf already meet me at this date and i agree already.. den suddenly super best buddy after that say on that day want to meet up play soccer. I will kindly reject the best buddy or vice versa if gf is the later one.

Ok, cause its late and I forgot what more i wanted to blog after those inspired topics from my cousins. Think this is the 1st time i'm talking about such topics right? I'll think of more interesting topics to blog next time. Haha. Anyways good night all!

=====Lyric of post=====
Good Charlotte - Girls And Boys
Educated, with money
He's well dressed- not funny
And not much to say in most conversations
But he'll put the bill in all situations
'Cause he pays for everything

Girls don't like boys, girls like cars and money
Boys will laugh at girls when they're not funny

Paper, or plastic
Don't matter- she'll have it
Vacations, and shopping sprees
These are a few of her favorite things

She'll get what she wants if she's willing to please
His type of girl always comes with a fee
Hey now, there's nothing for free

Girls don't like boys, girls like cars and money
Boys will laugh at girls when they're not funny
And these girls like these boys, like these boys like these girls
The girls with the bodies like boys with Ferraris
Girls don't like boys, girls like cars and money

Let's go!
Eh, eh!

All of these boys, ya and all of these girls
Are losing their souls in a material world

I'm back again..

2010-07-13T20:17:00.001+08:00

Yohoo, I'm back again! It's been 3 months since I updated my blog. Haha. I almost forgot I got one. I guess those who visits here will be sneezing because of the dusts. Lols.

Hmm, many things happened during these 3 months. Can say all are good things. Haha. Try to make things real short for this update.

In May, I've ORD-ed. Freedom off SAF! Haha. Right after ORD, I worked, with Ben, Jiajunn and Yongjie at Ngee Ann Poly with Co-op. Worked for the Graduation period. There, we met some good friends, 2 Indo-Chinese girls, Yuli and Nopie and Jonathan, Singaporean, yet to serve army. HAHA! Our supervisor, Auntie Margaret is also a very nice person. Then there is this Auntie Susan, so damn funny one. Haha. I'm glad to have this job, though work only for 1 month only. Throughout this 1 month of work, we all became kinda good friends. My birthday was also celebrated with them. Lols.

We still met for steamboat and seafood session after the work period. That week was like OMG la. Eat and eat... When the 2 Indo girls brought us, 5 guys to Batam for holiday around June, it was more eating and eating. Food in Batam very spicy. Those who cannot eat spicy food like me, who wants to go to Batam for holiday, bring at least 1 little of water with you. HAHA! The few days in Batam was really relaxing and fun.

So yeap, met new friends. Just last week, we celebrated Yuli's birthday at Minds Cafe. So I'm actually hoping we all don't lose contact after all these because they are really great friends to be with. Lols.

Realised I often plan birthday celebrations at Minds Cafe. Yonghui's, Marianne's and now Yuli's. Think I am the promoter of Minds Cafe. LOL! But most of the time plan, most of the people never go before, so still quite worth it. haha.

Hmmmm, oh ya, during these 3 months, I also changed my handphone. HTC Desire! Wootz. Cannot say its the best phone in the world, but its still a very good phone. Haha. I am still figuring out how to use my phone to its full potential.

World Cup:

This world cup is really freak. A lot of shocking results. Haha. But it's quite enjoyable especially after quarter finals. Jiajunn and Benjamin often come to my house to watch matches. It's really fun watching soccer matches with friends. My family already quite high when watching soccer matches le, but with friends, its even better! Haha. EPL starting soon, Manchester United fans, anyone? My door is always open and my TV will always be on for every Manchester United matches! =)

Gratz to Spain. Haha. Like I say even before the start of World Cup, Spain will win the World Cup and I was right! Lol. Too bad never bet. Its okay, no money never mind, most important is I enjoyed, especially the company of my friends.

So now, fun's over, world cup's over. I need a job! Won't be going Uni perhaps after another year or 2. Work first and decide my path. Whatever it is, I just need to go step by step and see what is the best for me and my future. For now, I gonna work first. Yeap. Think that should be all I've got to update...

Oh ya! I need to get my body clock back on track. I should also start to jog/run/workout more already. Have been too lazy. No motivation at all. Any friends here to motivate me? Accompany me running leh!! Haha!

CYA!

well, i'm glad i made a decision

it may be better this way

give up and let go

but is my life all about giving up?

is my life all about letting go?

i hope not...

though i'm more happy now,

(ok, i'm actually a happy person everyday,)

i still think about it sometimes.

but the decision is made,

i shall stick to it.

while this bridge is broken,

i shall try and find another bridge.

======== Song of Post ========

Baby Bash ft. Akon - Baby I'm Back

[Chorus Akon]
Don't look no farther!
Baby im back (yeah)
Im here to cater to you (any thing that you want me: do ill do it)
Cause Ill be your lover (ill be your lover)
Ill be your best friend
Tell me what I gotta do (tell me what I gotta do and ill do it)

[Baby Bash]
Now im back in a flesh
Feelin so blessed, back in your corner suga, suga don't stress
Forget about the rest; let's go inside, im back in your zone
Baby im back in your vibe, now I cant be denied I can lie im on ya
I never ever wanna say sayonara
Some body told me that the grass was greener
On the other side of lake haewa
Never really used to be a mean to cheat her
What I gotta do to be a keeper
These words comin out the speaker, true love is off the meter

[Chorus]

Don't look no farther!
Baby im back (yeah)
Im here to cater to you (any thing that you want me: do ill do it)
Cause Ill be your lover (ill be your lover)
Ill be your best friend
Tell me what I gotta do (tell me what I gotta do and ill do it)

[Baby Bash]
I was gone for a minute but now im home,
Kids forget me for being a rolling stone,
Please forgive me let me polish it up like chrome,
Get off the phone till he swears to leave me alone,
Let my start your interest,
now there's no more dating on the internet,
Cause you already know how I get it wet,
how I get it so salty and I get respect,
You don't have to look no farter,
you dealin with the hoe with your lada,
You don't have to look no farther,
you hotter then a fire starter

[Chorus]Don't look no farther!
Baby im back (yeah)
Im here to cater to you (any thing that you want me: do ill do it)
Cause Ill be your lover (ill be your lover)
Ill be your best friend
Tell me what I gotta do (tell me what I gotta do and ill do it)

[Baby Bash]
I was gone for a minute, (oooohhh) [repeat x3]
Now im back let me hit it (oooohhh) [repeat x4]

Don't look no farther!
Baby im back (yeah)
Im here to cater to you (any thing that you want me: do ill do it)
Cause Ill be your lover (ill be your lover)
Ill be your best friend
Tell me what I gotta do (tell me what I gotta do and ill do it)

Don't look no farther!
Baby im back (yeah)
Im here to cater to you (any thing that you want me: do ill do it)
Cause Ill be your lover (ill be your lover)
Ill be your best friend
Tell me what I gotta do (tell me what I gotta do and ill do it)

Troubled thoughts

2010-04-18T20:07:00.000+08:00

Today slept almost whole day. Too tired. These few days really not enough sleep. Slept late, wake up early. Yesterday was super duper tired. Can't bring up the energy and mood to play at Sentosa. Think I'm falling sick soon. Haha.

Anyway, great day yesterday, especially for all Manchester United fans! Was supposed to go to Devil's Bar @ Red Cafe after Sentosa to watch Manchester City -vs- Manchester United. However, because the whole Bar is fully reserved, we were not able to go in. Luckily, Mirza they all found out that the MacDonalds nearby have screening for the match. So no choice, watch there lor. It was actually nice to watch matches with friends. Maybe I'll ask my friends to come over to my house to watch World Cup! That last minute goal popped in by Paul Scholes... That feeling is like... "WHOOOO-HOOOO!!!" The tired me suddenly just burst into life. Haha.

Reached home and watched Tottenham -vs- Chelsea. I was sleeping throughout the match. LOL! But I did saw the goals and the sent off of John Terry. So happy Chelsea lost, and hope they lose more!!

This past few days really not normal self. Don't know is it because I'm too tired, or i'm falling sick or i'm just moody. But I am certain that there is something that keeps bugging me. I tried not to think too much, but the thoughts just lingers in my head. Haiz. Nvm, shall play game to stop myself from thinking......

Got so much i wanted to say, but i just forgot everything so shall end here... =)

the pressure that day was incensed. i don't know what happened... suddenly i felt i am not myself.

====Song of Post====
Fall Out Boy - What A Catch, Donnie

I've got troubled thoughts and the self-esteem to match
What a catch, what a catch, whoa-oh

You'll never catch us, so, just let me be instead
I'll be fine 'til the hospital or American embassy
Miss Flack said, “I still want you back”
Yeah, Miss Flack said, “I still want you back”

I've got troubled thoughts and the self-esteem to match
What a catch, what a catch
And all I can think of is the way I'm the one who charmed
The one who gave up on you, who gave up on you

They say the captain goes down with the ship
So, when the world ends, will God go down with it?
Miss Flack said, “I still want you back”
Yeah, Miss Flack said, “I still want you ba-a-ack”

I've got troubled thoughts and the self-esteem to match
What a catch, what a catch
And all I can think of is the way I'm the one who charmed
The one who gave up on you, who gave up on you

Na na nanana
Na na nanana
Na na nanana
Na na nanana

What a catch, what a catch
What a catch, what a catch

[Elvis Costello]
I will never end up like him
Behind my back, I already am
Keep a calendar
This way, you will always know

[Patrick Stump]
I've got troubled thoughts and the self-esteem to match
What a catch, what a catch
And all I can think of is the way I'm the one who charmed
The one who gave up on you, who gave up on you

[Gabe Saporta]
(Where is your boy tonight?
I hope he is a gentlemen
Maybe he won't find out what I know
You were the last good thing about this part of town)

[Travis McCoy]
(We're going down, down in an earlier round
And sugar we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with the bullet
A loaded God complex, cock it and pull it)

[Brendan Urie]
(Dance, dance, we're falling apart to half time
Dance, dance, and these are the lives you'd love to lead
Dance, this is the way they'd love if they know
How misery loves me)

[Doug Neuman]
(This ain't a scene, it's a God damn arms race
This ain't a scene, it's a God damn arms race)

[Alex DeLeon]
(One night, yeah, one more time
Thanks for the memories
Even if they weren't that great
He tastes like you, only sweeter)

[William Beckett]
(Growing up, growing up)

[Patrick Stump]
I've got troubled thoughts and the self-esteem to match
What a catch, what a catch

Hope

2010-04-13T13:51:00.000+08:00

I was really quite stunned when I first heard the news. He had a tumor on his head and it requires an operation. Well, he looked okay when we visited him that weekend.

Suddenly things changed so much... I saw Lokping's blog and found out something worst. If he goes for the operation to remove the tumor, he will become deaf. If he does not for the operation, he will become paralyzed for life. And there's something more to this. The specialist now suspect that he has more tumors on his body. He will do a spine MRI soon.

Though I admit I really dislike him for all his weird actions, like what Lokping says, he actually mean no harm. Right now, for all the things he helped us in the past, we should also share some care and concern. Actually, the person I pity most is his father. The only son, and now things starts to happen. Poor thing right?

I suggested to him to go to another specialist at NUH. I really think NUH doctors are better then Tan Tock Seng. Whether he takes my advice or not, is his own choice.

Anyway, I hope things will turn out good for him. The song of this post is dedicated to him. Though the lyrics has no link to this, but I like the title and the lyric content also talks about being hopeful... Enjoy...

[VERSE 1 (Twista)]
I wish the way I was living could stop, serving rocks,
Knowing the cops is hot when I'm on the block, And I
Wish my brother woulda made bail,
So I won't have to travel 6 hours to see him in jail, And I
Wish that my grandmother wasn't sick,
Or that we would just come up on some stacks and hit a lick, And I (I wish)
Wish my homies wouldn't have to suffer,
When the streets get the upper hand on us and we lose a brother, And I
Wish I could go deep in the zone,
And lift the spirits of the world with the words within this song, And I (I wish)
Wish I could teach a could teach a soul to fly,
Take away the pain out cha hands and help you hold them hi, And I
Wish My hommie Butch was still alive
And on the day of his death we had never took that ride, And I (I wish)
Wish that God could protect us from the wrong,
so all the soldiers that were sent overseas come home.
we would never break,
though they devastate,
We shall motivate,
And we gotta pray, all we got is faith.
Instead of thinking about who gonna die to day,
The Lord is gonna help you feel better, so you ain't gotta cry today.
Sit at the light so long,
And then we gotta move straight forward, cuz we fight so strong,
So when right go wrong,
Just say a little prayer, get ya money man, life goes on!!!
Let's HOPE!

[CHORUS (Faith Evans)]
Though I'm hopeful, yes I am, hopeful for today,
Take this music and use it
Let it take you away,
And be hopeful! Hopeful and he'll make a way
I know it ain't easy but that's okay.
'Cause we hopeful!

[VERSE 2 (Twista)]
I wish that you could show some love,
Instead of hatin so much when you see some other people commin up (I wish)
I wish I could teach the world to sing,
Watch the music and have 'em trippin of the joy I bring,
I wish that we could hold hands,
Listen instead of dissin lessons from a grown man, And I (I wish)
Wish the families that lack, but got love, get some stacks
Brand new shack and a lac' that's on dubs, And I
Wish we could keep achieving wonders,
See the vision of the world through the eyes of Stevie Wonder, (you feel me) (I wish)
And I hope all the kids eat,
And don't nobody in my family see six feet, (ya dig)
I hope them mothers stand strong,
You can make it whether you with him or your mans gone, And I (I wish)
Wish I could give every celly some commissary,
And the po po bring the heat on the peace like they did R. Kelly, And I
Wish that DOC could scream again
And bullets could reverse so Pac and Biggie breath again, (I wish)
That one day they could speak again,
I wish that we only saw good news every time we look at CNN,
I wish we could never get the blues,
Wish I could bring back the people that died at E2*, (I wish)
I wish that we could walk a path, stay doin the right thing
Hustle hard so the kids maintain up in the game,
Let's HOPE

[CHORUS (Faith Evans)]
Though I'm hopeful, yes I am, hopeful for today,
Take this music and use it
Let it take you away,
And be hopeful, hopeful and he'll make a way
I know it ain't easy but that's okay.
Cause we hopeful!

[VERSE 3 (Twista)]
Wish the earth wasn't so apocalyptic,
I try to spread my message to the world the best way I can give it,
We can make it always be optimistic,
If you don't listen gotta live my life the best way that I can live it,
I pray for justice when we go to court,
Wish it was all good so the country wouldn't have to go to war,
Why can't we kick it and just get em on,
And in the famous words of Mr. King "Why can't we all just get along",
Hope we can find a better way to shop and please, And I
Hope we find a better way to cop a keys, And I
Wish everybody would just stop and freeze,
And ask way are we fulfilling these downfalls and these prophecies,
You can be wrong if it's you doubting,
With the faith of a mustard seed you can move mountains,
And only the heavenly father can ease the hurt,
Just let it go and keep prayin on your knees in church!!
And let's HOPE

[CHORUS (Faith Evans) X2]
Though I'm hopeful, yes I am, hopeful for today,
Take this music and use it
Let it take you away,(let it take you away)
And be hopeful, hopeful and he'll make a way
I know it ain't easy but that's okay. (i know it aint easy)
Cause we hopeful

Took out 1 side of my wisdom teeth yesterday. Left top and bottom. 2 weeks later taking out another 2 on the other side... OMG!!! Scary sia!!! Drinking blood for the whole night... I might just turn into vampire one day man. Lols.

The surgery is really scary lor. Injection is quite painful sia. But after that when numb liao then okay already. The lower part is taken out by breaking the tooth into pieces. Using drill, the dentist drill into pieces before pulling out. The top one, just pull out just like that. Wahh, imagine without the injection. Luckily the dentist inject quite a lot. My numbness just stay for the whole night. Haha.

ORDing in another 4 weeks time. 2 weeks MC. 1 week clear leave. What to do after ORD? I really have no idea. But current plan is find work, den think of what course to study. I am not continuing on my Diploma. So I'm going to start something from scratch. I'm still interested in my Policeman job tho. Most likely cannot ah. See how first. If cannot, den I think i might be more interested in Mechanical engineer or anything chemistry. Biochemical engineering maybe? But find a job first is most important.

Went for the Starhub Urban Freestyle Race on Saturday. Its been so so so so long since I ran. For 8 months I guess. When Shujuan asked me, I had pains in my ankle. But I still signed up, because the obstacles really look interesting! However, it's quite disappointing. Baggage area is so damn muddy. It's the weather's fault, not the organizer's fault. However, the obstacles are not as interesting as it seems. For example there is a obstacles where you have to crawl under the camo net, as stated in the pamphlet. I thought the camo is lay wide and you have to "leopard crawl" through. But, the camo net are all bundled up and you can just stride across them. Half of the time in the race are just wait waiting and waiting. The queue to the obstacles are just sooooo long. Though the race is disappointing, we had fun. Phototaking, talk cock, joking and running. But i very chui, can't really run. Haha. Did lots of jumping, hopefully didn't hurt my ankles. Thanks Syafiq and Shujuan for concerning my ankles by asking me not to do stunts. Haha. Hopefully today see specialist, result is nothing wrong. Thing my specialist will scold me if he sees my facebook. haha.

Dota dota and dota! I just learnt how to play and now I'm addicted to it already. Every sunday, iBen, iZeal, iJunn and iHoow will go to Bukit Gombak for Prata and Jurong SAFRA for Dota!!! Now 1 week MC, every day at home click click click click click.... Good to have new hobby to keep things off my mind. =)

Alright, gotta go click click click already....... Later going NUH...

now that i'm stuck in the middle of the bridge
i'm contended to just stay here and watch the scenery.

Sick...

2010-03-16T14:38:00.000+08:00

It's been so long since I listened to songs like this. These few days suddenly addicted to these kind of music. Paramore ROCKS!!! Songs like this takes out all my frustrations and bad mood away. Whoo! Blast it in your ears, listen to the guitars, listen to the drums... and forget everything but the music! These are the kind of music that brings me a lot of motivations too, especially if I need to do a lot of physical activities. They do push me on. Haha.

Wah, these few days really killing me sia. Must be the durians i ate on Friday night. That night, my throat was starting to get itchy. It got worst on Saturday night. Probably due to lack of fluid after soccer.

Yupz, soccer with some of the OB peeps on sat. Iszwan and Shaun planned it. The only alumni who went is me and derrick. I played goalkeeper, and now regretted diving on concrete ground. haha. My thigh and waist hurts. Rained heavily after just 2 matches and we called it a day. Went to Al Ameen for dinner and after that, Iszwan, Derrick, Jewellcy and me decided to go do things, but dunno wat to do. As expected, the planning of what to do next always take very long. 1st say, want to walk walk, den say want watch movie, or LAN, or pool... so many choices. haha. In the end, we settled on playing bowling. Went to Jurong Safra, but there no bowling! Then want to watch movie, but all too late! zzz. So in the end, we just ate dessert and chit chat. After that go home. Zzz. That night, my throat got super itchy liao.

Sunday morning, before meeting Ben and Lokping, went to see doc. Got 2 days MC, until today. Doc say too heaty and my throat like swollen. After brunch, went to Jurong Safra for LAN. Haha.

Till now, i still havent recover. My nose's is blocked like hell, and my coughing starting to get worse. The medicine make me feel very drowsy and moody. My head feel so heavy. Though my throat not itchy anymore. The nose block and phlegm is making me having difficulty in breathing. Require my inhaler, but doesn't help a lot. Terrible. And i'm going to book in tonight. Hopefully I can survive....

I tried not to think too much.
Somehow, the thoughts still comes back.
Even when I sleep, I dream of it......

====Lyrics of Post====

Paramore - Careful

I settled down
A twisted up frown
Disguised as a smile, well
You would've never known

I had it all
But not what I wanted
‘Cause hope for me
Was a place uncharted
And overgrown

You'd make your way in
I resisted just like this

You can't tell me to feel
The truth never set me free
So, I did it myself

You can't be too careful anymore
When all that is waiting for you
Won't come any closer
You've got to reach out a little more
More
More
More, more

Open your eyes,
Like I opened mine
It's only the real world.
A life you will never know

Shifting your weight
To throw off the pain
Well you can ignore it
But, only for so long

You look like I did
You resist me just like this

You can't tell me to heal
And, it hurts remembering
How it felt to shut down

You can't be too careful anymore
When all that is waiting for you
Won't come any closer
You've got to reach out a little more
More
More
More, more

The truth never set me free
The truth never set me free
The truth never set me free
So, I'll do it myself

You can't be too careful anymore
When all that is waiting for you
Won't come any closer
You've got to reach out

Can't be too careful anymore
When all that is waiting for you
Won't come any closer
You've got to reach out
More
More
More
More, more

Wish

2010-03-07T21:19:00.000+08:00

One week just gone like that. Later have to book in already. Suddenly just dread booking in. Can literally feel the heart getting heavier, beating faster as you look at the time and know you are near booking in. Though going to ORD soon, but the feeling just come.

I have been staying alone in a 2-men bunk. Being alone at night is always very miserable. It's lonely. Though the other bunk's friend do come over to chat sometimes, but the chatting doesn't last very long. The only thing accompanying me is my iTouch. I couldn't sleep early at night anymore, even if I sleep late. Maybe because I always sleep in the afternoon. =P

Just always think a lot when I'm lonely. Hmmm. Maybe i try to go up bunk as late as possible by watching TV. Chatting with my men can also be a way ba.....

Wishes that never come true...

No matter how hard.

I don't really believe in wishes,

But I still wish......

Ok, what you want, you try to get it.

Wishing doesn't get you anywhere.

oh no, its friday!

2010-03-05T03:32:00.006+08:00

So fast already Friday. Haiz... I'm on MC since Monday. Till now there's still pain on my ankle though its not as painful as on Sat. Will be having Physiotherapy later at 11am. Hope this will be a fast session. Actually quite sick and tired of doing those exercises by myself with no one tending and pointing out my mistakes and also nobody to talk to. But nonetheless, for faster recovery, I still need to do. I haven't did my physio exercises at home nor in camp. Just too plain lazy to do.

This week is a boring week, but it's also a fast week. I haven't enjoy and the week gonna end. 2 duties this month. Hope next month no more duty liao. One month before ORD no duty! Haha. Next Thurs got duty, 27 March also got another one. Saturday somemore... Haiz. Nvm, going to end soon. *Tahan!*

A lot went through my mind these past few days but the more I think, the more depress I am. Nvm. I just gonna relax and just see how things go, just like how I used to be... Hmmm..

Going to ORD liao, another problem. What to do after ORD? It seems to me that my Police Force career is as hopeless as Tiger Woods' marriage as long as my status is still Pes C. Furthermore, I just made my injury worst, hopefully nothing major happen. If I cannot get into Police Force, what can I do? I haven't apply for Uni yet as I have no idea what course to take.

Plan A: Work, and during this time, see what course to take.

Plan B: Just anyhow whack one course la.

Plan C: Just try for Singapore Police Force and pray hard to get in. If get in, then try for their sponsorship.

Plan D: Just die, then no need worry so much.

Haha. Seen like Plan A is most suitable as for now. Plan C can try also. Plan B is just a wastage of money. Plan D is a wonderful idea!! That is if I am in a situation like Tiger Woods / John Terry. =P

Talking about them, just don't understand why these people can't seem to keep their pants up, and zipped. John Terry lagi best, flirt with his best friend's wife somemore. Maybe they need chains and locks to lock up their pants and keep the keys with their wives.

Late liao, gotta sleep. Later very early need to wake up, if not I'll be late for Physio. zzz. Oh ya, this song is actually from Moonlight Resonance (家好月圆). Very nice song. =)

sometimes i wonder if i am just overly-sensitive...

think so much and all facts just seem to be the opposite of my thoughts...

i might just be my own problem...

====Lyrics of the Post====

Ciara Newell - Ice Cream

Talk to me, speak with me
Don't sink before you rise baby
Don't fade away
You hesitate, you seem to wait
For all the time we had feels a world away

'Cause who's to say we'll be okay
We will make it through the night
Don't want to wake up in this state
I just want us both to smile

'Cause we're the same and I know that will never change
Look I bought your favourite ice cream
I don't want to see it melt away
If you walk out now
I don't know if we could be the same
Baby, just talk with me
'Cause I want you to stay here with me

The memories, the things we did
Are locked inside my heart
Where I know I won't forget them now

Who's to say we'll be okay
We will make it through the night
Don't want to wake up in this state
I just want us both to smile

'Cause we're the same and I know that will never change
Look I bought your favourite ice cream
I don't want to see it melt away
If you walk out now
I don't know if we could be the same
Baby, just talk with me
'Cause I want you to stay here with me

unlucky

2010-02-28T09:31:00.001+08:00

Things just seem to get bad to worst,

you are afraid of disturbing,

do you still approach?

Sometimes, things just doesn't go your way,

what you feel isn't really the truth,

do you still assume?

Friends always say,

never try, never know.

But sometimes try already, then you know...

how jialat it might be.

Maybe it'll just become worsen than worst.

Though afraid is never an excuse,

Shall just let things be.

Maybe I'm just courage-less.

Whatever lah, dun need think so much. haha.

Eh.. went Sentosa. Freaking shag. Like run whole day. Maybe I shouldn't have ran so much. It's still bad for my ankle. Frisbee & soccer. Suddenly I lost my skill in hammering the Frisbee. Never mind. Next time try again. Soccer! Finally kicked ball! I do think I made a couple of good passes though I'm really worried for my ankle when I played. FLY FISH! Missed the last session. This time finally got to play. Played with Wesley and KK. Freaking shag. Use alot of arm power. Fell into sea 3 times. Sprained my ankle when I climbed back up the boat and I did not land my foot properly. SUPER PAIN!!! I really scared my surgeried ligament just snapped. Very very scared. I dun want to go back to square one. I want to start running. PLEASE, HOPE NOTHING TO YOU, LIGAMENT....

March 20 maybe going Sentosa again. I want to hammer the Frisbee properly man. HAHA.

CHELSEA LOST AT HOME 4-2 TO MAN CITY! 2 RED CARDS FOR THEM! WHOO HOO! Hope today Man Udt can win the League Cup Final......

I really think I am down on luck this few days. Lost a very precious item. Then when I played with the babies, I can knock my head to the floor. zzz. Then I sprained my ankle, the most weird way to sprain an ankle. zzz. Haiz.

Meeting JJ, Ben and OLP for Left 4 Dead 2 soon. Dun wanna be late. Cya!

(The song of the post is also from the show 海派甜心. Nice song.)

====Lyrics of Post====

罗志祥 - 爱不单行

找不到人说心里的寂寞
找不到人懂怕黑的折磨
找不到命中注定在一起的那个人
很多人都像我一个人过生活

爱只有简单笔画却比想象复杂
恨安定爱变化
我爱过几个人也被爱过几遍
却还是没能将幸福留下

爱是不可数的吗为何我还相信
它不是独行侠
我在等一个人在等我的永恒
告诉我爱不单行别害怕

用不完身边泛滥的自由
开始怕孤单是一种诅咒
羡慕我能飞的人为何在天黑以后
还是宁愿回到爱情那个枷锁

爱只有简单笔画却比想象复杂
恨安定爱变化
我爱过几个人也被爱过几遍
却还是没能将幸福留下

爱是不可数的吗为何我还相信
它不是独行侠
我在等一个人在等我的永恒
告诉我爱不单行别害怕

爱只有简单笔画却比想象复杂
恨安定爱变化
我爱过几个人也被爱过几遍
却还是没能将幸福留下

爱是不可数的吗为何我还相信
它不是独行侠
我在等一个人在等我的永恒
告诉我爱不单行别害怕

我在等一个人在等我的永恒
告诉我爱不单行相信它

First Step

2010-02-21T02:17:00.003+08:00

Everytime you make the first step, the bridge just crumples.

You can never get across.

This bridge is the same.

Somehow it still haven't crumple yet after the first step.

But still, it seems like it'll crumple anytime soon.

What will you do?

Its okay you all dun understand. Lols...

Super sian, Man Utd lost. Back to square one again. Had an enjoyable day though. Left 4 Dead 2 with OLP, Ben and JJ at SAFRA Jurong. Nice game but I super lousy at it lah. 1st time play. Haha. Super long time never play LAN already.

Went Wenting's place Bai Nian. Stomach/gastric giving me all sorts of problems again. Didn't eat much. But still enjoy myself with the rest of the peeps. Till now I still dun really understand the storyline of Constantine. Haha. All about Heaven and Hell, Devil and God. Thats what I know. Lols. Though it's fun watching with the group. Hehz.

They want to go Taiwan coming June/July. Money Money not enough. Think I have to skip this trip. Even if i start to save up now, it won't be enough. Haiz. Think no choice lah.

Sentosa next week. Hope everyone can turn up. Still got Flying Fish to try. Hope the stupid boat dun give problem again. Lols!! After that maybe go down Bedok to HUAT with my cousins and relatives. Hehz!

Will blog soon, so cya!

====Lyrics of Post====

Paramore - The Only Execption

When I was younger I saw my daddy cry
and curse at the wind.
He broke his own heart and I watched
as he tried to reassemble it.

And my momma swore
that she would never let herself forget.
And that was the day that I promised
I'd never sing of love if it does not exist.

But Darling,
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.

Maybe I know somewhere
deep in my soul
that love never lasts.
And we've got to find other ways
to make it alone.
Keep a straight face.
And I've always lived like this
keeping a comfortable distance.
And up until now I had sworn to myself
that I'm content with loneliness.

Because none of it was ever worth the risk.

Well you are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.

I've got a tight grip on reality,
but I can't let go of what's in front of me here.
I know you're leaving in the morning
when you wake up.
Leave me with some kind of proof its not a dream.

You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.

You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.

I'm on my way to believing
And I'm on my way to believing

*Haley's so sweet and pretty in the MV!! Lols!! =P *

My CNY so far...

2010-02-16T03:16:00.003+08:00

Yoyoyo! Happy Chinese New Year everyone! Hope everybody enjoyed it. Just came back from Malaysia at 10pm. Something interesting JUST happened... will talk about it later...

Spent CNY and V'day in Msia. Hmm, did not do much over there. Went there on Saturday, slack until Monday. But luckily my little cousin went to play 海派甜心. Heard from Shuyi that its nice, then just watch lor. Withing 2 days, we finished the whole thing. But I missed some parts lah. Ok lah, quite nice, but the episodes at the back not very good. I dun understand, why Taiwan idol dramas like to have memory loss one. They lack of innovation lah... the 1st one I watched, which i think was nice but never complete, was 雪天使. The plot very nice, but did not complete becos of school. Also got memory loss. zzzzzzzzzzz. But the song of the post is very nice song from the drama. Haha.

2nd night, cousin brought to watch 大兵小将. Jackie Chan show. Quite nice, very funny. Haha. I wanna watch Valentine's Day!!! Because got Taylor Swift!!!!!!!! Hahaha! Anybody wanna watch????

Anyway, something happened around 1am just now. I was listening to song happily when suddenly I heard a "thud" sound by my window. I thought something dropped. So me and my brother looked around and found something stuck at my window. We did not open because got liquid flowing out also. I thought it was pear or what, and probably somebody threw and i did not want the juice to flow inside my room. So i dun want to to open window in case later got ant. Then my bro found out the liquid like abit brown brown one. So I thought it was a bird, fly fly fly, then bang into my window and the liquid was blood. haha. But look again, doesn't seem so.

After that, my brother went down to have a look. It was egg lah!!! And it stinks. I sian diao, faster take water to wash. Found out the the smell dun go away, i took a pail of water with Detto, use sponge and wash. But still did not go away. Then I found out my neighbour also went down to check. She ask me whether I kena egg or not, den I say, Ya. So she also kena. Must be some pranksters.

My bro then told me, he suspect a group of people who are under another block. So me and my brother decided to see if we can go to the block and listen to them to see whether is them or not. LOLs. In the end, we saw a family of three came from the block. So i asked them whether they saw the group have any eggs with them or not. They say they never see carefully.

So me and my bro, who want to avoid detection, wanted to walk one big round to the other block when we found the egg package by the lift of the block just beside us. So, instantly i think that this egg package must be the package that contained the eggs. So the person who did it must have touched it. There'll be finger prints. So I decided to call police. My bro then went on to the other block to find out what the group is doing.

While waiting for the police to come, I saw a uncle went around the block. So I think he also kena. When the police finally came, the uncle then ask us if we kena egg or not. His one is worst. Cause he lived at the first floor, the person threw it INTO his house through his gate. His daughter and her husband joined us too. They kena a few years back. Zzz. The Indian police officer quite unfriendly leh. Then with him was a rookie officer with a temporary pass. Wasted around 1 hr plus talking to them. Zzz

Took out statement, and we brought him the egg package. He say, might not be able to find prints because its plastic. But if want him to bring back, then can. I say, ok lor. In the end he also never take it. Zzz. While taking the statement, another malay family came to us also. He say they also kena. But they did not take statement. They just disappeared like that.

This is the first time i called police. Haha. Interesting sia. Then give statement all these. I hope in the future, I will be the one taking statement. Hehe. While giving the statement, I tried to observe how they work all these. They took picture of the scene and block number. Hopefully within 7 days, they can give us a reply.

Really hope the culprit can be caught. This kind of act of mischief should be punished. Its not like knocking on peoples' door randomly, or pressing doorbells and run away. Its throwing of egg leh. Can be considered vandalism. Just imagine if i never close window. I think I will kena headshot lor!!! Stupid person. Hope this person gets rotten thrown to him.

KNS lor, just come back from Malaysia then something like that happened. Zzzz. Ok lah, tired already, want to sleep already. Haha. Good nights!

*I wonder if you get the hint......*

====Lyrics of post====

杨丞琳 - 雨爱

窗外的天气就像是你多变的表情
下雨了雨陪我哭泣
看不清我也不想看清
离开你我安静的抽离不忍揭晓的剧情
我的泪流在心里学会放弃

听雨的声音一滴滴清晰
你的呼吸像雨滴渗入我的爱里
真希望雨能下不停
让想念继续让爱变透明
我爱上给我勇气的rainie love

久违的雨滴一滴滴累积
屋内的湿气像储存爱你的记忆
真希望雨能下不停
雨爱的秘密能一直延续
我相信我将会看到彩虹的美丽

冷冷的空气很窒息我无法呼吸
一万颗雨滴的距离很彻底让爱消失无息
离开你我安静的抽离不忍揭晓的剧情
我的泪流在心里学会放弃

听雨的声音一滴滴清晰
你的呼吸像雨滴渗入我的爱里
真希望雨能下不停
让想念继续让爱变透明
我爱上给我勇气的rainie love

窗外的雨滴一滴滴累积
屋内的湿气像储存爱你的记忆
真希望雨能下不停
雨爱的秘密能一直延续
我相信我将会看到彩虹的美丽

屋内的湿气像储存爱你的记忆

真希望雨能下不停
雨爱的秘密能一直延续
我相信我将会看到彩虹的美丽

CNY~!!!

2010-02-12T13:23:00.006+08:00

Today, instead of song, I posted a video. Some of you might seen it on Facebook. I feel its damn funny lah. The rap brings some logic also. Haha. We should have our own style of Chinese New Year Songs. 不要中国传什么过来，我们唱什么出来。(China bring whatever over here, we sing whatever out of our mouth.) Wahaha.

Chinese New Year also is Valentine's Day. Year of the Tiger, to those who wants to find your true love, bring out your Tiger courage. 老虎胆. Lols. Jiayou!!

I'll be off to Malaysia to 过年. Think Monday then return. So wish you all Happy CNY, HUAT all the way ah!!! Buy 4D strike 4D, Buy TOTO strike TOTO, never buy also pick up winning ticket ah!!! Lols!

Also, Happy Valentines Day too you all too. =)

=====Lyrics of post====

黄明志&发财宝 - 发财宝大拜年

发财宝：

锣鼓咚咚锵也

新春来到人人心花放也

鞭炮震四方也

迎接财神来到家门口也

黄明志：

大马新年专辑

每天翻来翻去
有人唱新年歌

唱到出了精选集
唱法一成不变

歌词不合逻辑

还有一堆群星

穿得像红衛兵

就连青春偶像

也要被逼下海
弄到整个喜气洋洋

这就叫做悲哀
你的形象

不是本來要酷酷醬的咩？
做么你公司要让你出來一起咚咚锵啊？！

恭喜你祝你发大财

祝你新年发大财
YO！ YO！
恭喜你祝你财神到
财神陪着你睡觉

发财宝：
又是一个春天好预桃咧
家家户户乐陶陶
迎新送旧

在今朝啊
大家见面都说好

黄明志：
哇劳喂

你的歌词让我听了很烦
什么冬天春天
你把我当作KONGKAM
这里除了下雨
我每天热到BUEH TAHAN
你还來跟我乱乱唱
我听了西北赌懒
那些无能赞助商
只知道赚钱很爽
难道你老师沒有教
大马四季如夏
你上课迟到
还假假不知道
有一条红红的线
它叫做赤道

恭喜你祝你发大財

祝你新年发大財

YO！ YO！

恭喜你祝你财神到
财神陪着你吃年糕

发财宝：
我们来来过新年唷
啊家家户户庆团圆

爆竹声声迎新年唷
啊年年有余乐绵绵

黄明志：
爆你的懒趴！
歌词根本有问题啦
连我阿妈都知道
放炮警察会捉啦
可能你是有钱佬
可以乱给红包
但是歌词
请按照LOGIC来写好不好？
哇劳！
听那些狗屁群星乱唱
新年歌也可以有自己的文化
中国传什么过來
你就唱什么出來
你妈的住这边醬久
还不懂LOCALIZE啊？

恭喜你祝你发大财

祝你新年发大财
YO！ YO！
恭喜你祝你财神到
财神陪着你鞭炮

发财宝：
贺新年, 祝新年
新年阿, 年连年
爆竹声声催人......

黄明志：
我黃明志
YO！我黃明志

有东西想要告訴你......

发财宝:
啊啦！鸡掰黃明志啦！
赁爸老子忍你西北久了啦！
过年啊！
不要跟赁爸哭爸哭母啊！

2010-02-06T00:12:00.002+08:00

90 more days...... Counting down...

For 3 consecutive weeks, my Fridays had been bad. Haiz...

Emo...

======Lyrics of post======
Eminem - Beautiful

[Intro]
Lately I've been hard to reach
I've been too long on my own
Everybody has a private world
Where they can be alone
Are you calling me
Are you trying to get through
Are you reaching out for me
I'm reaching out for you

[Verse 1]
I'm just so fucking depressed, I just can't seem to get out this slump
If I could just get over this hump,
but I need something to pull me out this dump
I took my bruises, took my lumps, fell down and I got right back up
But I need that spark to get psyched back up, 
in order for me to pick the mic back up
I don't know how or why or when, I ended up in this position I'm in
I'm startin' to feel distant again, so I decided just to pick this pen
Up to try to make an attempt to vent, but I just can't admit
Or come to grips with the fact that I may be done with rap, 
I need a new outlet
And I know some shits so hard to swallow, 
but I just can't sit back and wallow
In my own sorrow, but I know one fact, I'll be one tough act to follow
One tough act to follow,

Copy, one tough act to follow
Here today, gone tomorrow, but you'd have to walk a thousand miles

[Chorus]
In my shoes, just to see, what it's like to be me
I'll be you, let's trade shoes, just to see what it'd be like to
Feel your pain, you feel mine, go inside each others minds
Just to see, what we find, look at shit through each others eyes
So don't let them say you ain't beautiful
They can all get fucked, just stay true to you
Don't let them say you ain't beautiful
They can all get fucked, just stay true to you

[Verse 2]
I think I'm starting to lose my sense of humor
Everything's so tense and gloom, I
Almost feel like I gotta check the temperature of the room
Just as soon as I walk in, It's like all eyes on me, 
so I try to avoid any eye contact
Cause if I do that it then it opens the door for conversation, 
like I want that
I'm not looking for extra attention, I just wanna be just like you
Blend in with the rest of the room, 
maybe just point me to the closest restroom
I don't need no fuckin' man servant, 
trying to follow me around and wipe my ass
Laugh at every single joke I crack, and half of them ain't even funny,
like "Ha!
Marshall, you're so funny man, you should be a comedian, god damn!"
Unfortunately I am, I just hide behind the tears of a clown
So why don't you all sit down, listen to the tale I'm about to tell, hell
We don't gotta trade our shoes, and you ain't gotta walk no thousand miles

[Chorus]
In my shoes, just to see, what it's like to be me
I'll be you, let's trade shoes, just to see what it'd be like to
Feel your pain, you feel mine, go inside each others minds
Just to see, what we find, look at shit through each others eyes
So don't let them say you ain't beautiful
They can all get fucked, just stay true to you
Don't let them say you ain't beautiful
They can all get fucked, just stay true to you

[Verse 3]
Nobody asked for life to deal us with these bullshit hands we're dealt
We gotta take these cards ourselves, and flip them, don't expect no help
Now I could of either just sat on my ass, and pissed and moaned
Or take this situation in which I'm placed in, and get up and get my own
I was never the type of kid to wait by the door and pack his bags
Or sat on the porch and hoped and prayed for a dad to show up who never did
I just wanted to fit in in every single place, every school I went
I dreamed of being that cool kid even if it meant acting stupid
Aunt Edna always told me, keep making that face til it gets stuck like that
Meanwhile I'm just standing there holding my tongue, 
trying to talk like this!
Then I stuck my tongue on that frozen stop sign pole at eight years old
I learned my lesson then, 
'cause I wasn't trying to impress my friends no more
But I already told you my whole life story, not just based on my description
Cause where you see it form where you're sitting, 
is probably 110% different
I guess we would have to walk a mile in each others shoes at least
What size you wear, I wear 10's, let's see if you can fit your feet

[Chorus]
In my shoes, just to see, what it's like to be me
I'll be you, let's trade shoes, just to see what it'd be like to
Feel your pain, you feel mine, go inside each others minds
Just to see, what we find, look at shit through each others eyes
So don't let them say you ain't beautiful
They can all get fucked, just stay true to you
Don't let them say you ain't beautiful
They can all get fucked, just stay true to you

[Outro]
Lately I've been hard to reach
I've been too long on my own
Everybody has a private world
Where they can be alone
Are you calling me
Are you trying to get through
Are you reaching out for me
I'm reaching out for you

Yeah, to my babies, stay strong, dad will be home soon
And to the rest of the world... God gave you them shoes, to fit you
So put them on and wear them... be yourself man, 
be proud of who you are
Even if it sounds corny... 
don't ever let no one tell you, you ain't beautiful

For the past week

2010-02-01T19:35:00.002+08:00

Actually wanted to blog on Friday. I was really angry that day. But i was too tired, I slept the whole afternoon. Did COS duty last Tues and Thurs, getting little sleep. Tues COS was bad enough, though I forgot what was bad. Haha. Thurs COS was jialat. The only specialist in the whole company as most of the pioneers went for Section Battle Course. There are still pioneers in the company line, and 1 spec alone couldn't handle everyone especially when I need to do cookhouse duty and all. So many of them took off for Friday, and during the time they booked out, it was such a mess. Worst still, I slept at 2.30am on Friday morning, and had to wake up at 5am for cookhouse duty. I woke up late, for the first time.

These don't make me angry. What made me angry is after that, JUST before i was on my way to booking out. Handed over armskote and duty to a friend. I did some admin stuffs and went up late. I should not have stayed in the office, and just wash up and book out. Suddenly a call came to me, JUST AS I WAS ABOUT TO GO WASH UP, "eh, the key to the armskote keypress broke leh, how?" I was like, "WTF?!?!" I mean, how can a key break just like that?!?! I used it for so long, and nothing happened, and this have to happen JUST BEFORE I BOOK OUT?!?!

So i went down to have a look. And part of the key is in the keypress slot. The keypress can't be opened and there is guard duty the next day! Called my superior who is on leave to tell him the situation. There are spare keys to the locks and I asked if we can use them as there are guard duty the next day. He die die also don't want to use because the spare key in the spare keypress is sealed. Sealed meaning, its sealed with a Mindef sticker. He just dun want to break the seal and in the end have to get scolded by RSM. By right, in this case, the spare keys can be used. He just don't want to use. And the solution he gave me is: "There's still half of the key inside right? Use pliers to open lah" Easier said than done. I told him cannot be done already. Than the next solution is the thing that made me fumed: "I don't care how you do it, you need to open the keypress, EVEN IF YOU SAW IT, still must open."

HELLO HELLO HELLO!!! The keypress is made of iron ok! Its almost 3cm THICK! HOW THE HELL YOU WANT TO SAW THE KEYPRESS?!?! F-U understand! He also told me to after that use a new keypress. And i got so pissed off, i tell him ok, cupped his phone. I really super pissed off with the kind of solution he gave me. Luckily, a regular spec, very up one, sometime too up, came to our help. He got so much strength, he use pure strength, with the help of rulers and rods to pry open the keypress. But i still super angry, I was supposed to book out at 10am, and its 11am and I am still there. Now still got new keypress to settle. Need to drill hole, which all of us dunno how. We spent another 1 hour to drill hole and fixed the stupid keypress. Super angry lor..... I so angry and if there is a chance, I want him to show me, HOW THE HELL HE GOING TO SAW THE FREAKING KEYPRESS. Ask him to unlock the stupid keypress with half of the key inside. He say only mah, not he do. All my ABCs all come out also that day. That's what I hate about him, and I dun care if he happens to read this, he talk until so easy, and he never ever help out. Bullshit. With only 4hrs sleep, and going to book out plus a stupid solution, who doesn't flare?

Haiz, lets not talk about it anymore. Enough of it. One day I going to get myself interviewed already. Haha!

I realised i spent really a lot these few days. Friday night, went out with mum. She want to buy some stuffs, and just nice i say want to buy jeans. You know, Levi's had the jeans exchange thingy, where you bring any kind of jeans and they will strike off $50 off the jeans you buy. That is, unless you buy a pair of jeans worth more than $100. I bought 2, for the price of $178. Today, went to make specs, cost $198. I think this month alone, I going to spend up to $1000+ already. Next week, still got Shirlynn's bday party to attend. 21st somemore, sure need present mah. Erm, Shirlynn, if you are reading this, is maybe buy only, maybe not. =P
Well, I really need to save up already! $_$ EAT GRASS!!!!! Mooooo..... Jiaxuan! Teach me how to jiak zeh leh!!! HAHAHA!

Sad things aside, last night, Man U won Arsenal by 3 - 1. Thrilled by it. Kept jumping up and down when they scored, and my ankle hurts. LOL! I should protect my ankle more....

*Sometimes, I really wonder if there is any meanings or hidden messages behind your words/actions.

If there is, I'll decode them. *

Anyway, intro you the song of my post. I sure most of you heard of Taylor Swift's more popular songs such as Love Story and You Belong With Me.... This is also another song which I like. Hope you enjoy. I'll find a site which allow you all to download through the link soon. Maybe after book out this week. This song's called... Untouchable.

Booking in tonight. Sianz. Hopefully nothing will happen such that I'll flare again. My tempers not really good recently in camp. Think is because of not enough sleep. Gotta manage them well. Talk to me when you can. Talking with friends do cheer me up. =D Ciaoz!

======Lyrics of post======

Taylor Swift - Untouchable

Untouchable like a distant diamond sky.
I'm reachin out and I just can't tell you why.
I'm caught up in you, I'm caught up in you.
Untouchable burnin brighter than the sun,
And when you're close I feel like comin undone.

In the middle of the night when I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars spellin out your name
You gotta, come on, come on, say that we'll be together,
Come on, come on, little taste of heaven.

It's half full and I won't wait here all day.
I know you're sayin that you'd be here anyway.
But you're untouchable burnin brighter than the sun,
Now that you're close I feel like comin undone.

In the middle of the night when I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars spellin out your name
You gotta, come on, come on, say that we'll be together,
Come on, come on, oh

In the middle of the night we could form this dream.
I wanna feel you by my side, standin next to me.
You gotta, come on, come on, say that we'll be together.
Come on, come on, little taste of heaven.

Oh, Oh. 
I'm caught up in you. 
Oh, Oh, Oh.

Untouchable burnin brighter than the sun,
And when you're close I feel like comin undone.
*In the middle of the night when I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars spellin out your name*
You gotta, come on, come on, say that we'll be together,
Come on, come on, oh
In the middle of the night when I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars spellin out your name
You gotta, come on, come on, say that we'll be together,
Come on, come on, little taste of heaven.

Random

2010-01-25T20:09:00.002+08:00

This song is a very beautiful song. Very nice. But its not from Yingjia's blog that I knew this song. Her song everytime load very slow. So i never listen. I knew this song when I was doing duty and listening to 98.7FM. Didn't know the title at first till I found the lyric content then I know. Haha.

The wound on my mouth turned into ulcer. Was hit by flying frisbee on Saturday. Luckily the ulcer did not appear yesterday as my Uncle gave the whole family a treat in a restaurant at Bedok. The food was quite nice lah! Anyway, apart from the Frisbee and us unable to ride the flying fish due to water going into the hull of the equipment. Suay suay we want to ride, den like. Nvm, the lady say she will give us more playing time if we come again. HAHA! Other than these 2 suayness, its fun lah. I learned how to play frisbee and is amazed that I actually play it quite well as a beginner. I really think I learn quite fast. But it's not really a easy sport also. It's also the first time in many months that I ran the hardest. Muscle-pained yesterday. But I somehow miss this feeling. Haha.

Just plain friendly or not?

Whatever it is, there's no point guessing.

Time will tell.

Got my new slippers today. Cost me $29.90 and a trip from IMM to Jurong Point and a hell lot of time. Damn slippers, so difficult to find. Why OP shops no more slippers liao??? Ciaoz, booking in soon!

======Lyrics of post======

Owl City - Vanilla Twilight

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere
'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you dear
'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly
The silence isn't so bad
Till I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone
But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because when I think of you
I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone
I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again
And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear,
Oh darling I wish you were here

Lousy week

2010-01-22T22:52:00.004+08:00

Haiz. This week is really a lousy week. Think for the first time, I flared my temper for more than 3 days in 5 days all because of my superior. But fret not, I recover from them quite easily too. However, after these incidents, and the way I see it, I have lost total respect for my superior already.

I dare to do things no other else dare, that is to talk back to him. I'm not afraid of being punished because I dare to say what is right. How can you have a superior who talks only and doesn't do actions? He only ask people to work on his shit while he doesn't do his own shit himself. And when we did our best, he still criticize us for not doing a good job.

One example, he and another person is in charge of a certain thing. That particular day, the other person went out for something else and he needed to go for medical appointment. So I was called to help him do the things which he is familiar with and i am totally unfamiliar with. He did not even try to get those information to send to our "Big Boss" and got me to do it for him. I tried my best and in the end I still can't do it well. I don't care, I just send what instruction was given to me. In the end, he say he will settle himself. How did he settle it? He got the other person to go back just to send the info. That's how he settle things. Well, I got the reply from the "Big Boss" which was CC to him and my "Boss", and he said that's not what he wants and he wants more details. Well, being nice, I did not reply. If I did reply, I'll just say everything. I don't care.

Second example, the whole company needs to submit some feedbacks which require us to meet targets. These feedbacks have to be quality feedbacks to improve whatever we can improve. Because we did not meet the target, the whole company have to be confined on saturday to think of feedbacks which is instructions from higher up lah. This, we can't blame him. (I'm not confined since I met my quota. Hehe.) Well, we have a guy who is in charge of typing these feedbacks into the system. During our briefing, he said that he will take shift with the guy in charge to type these feedbacks and he will burn midnight oil with him as this is very urgent. The person in charge is trying his best as I can see. He couldn't take it, so at night, he went to rest. He was called by my superior to the office, saying its urgent and needs to be done faster. When the person in charge goes to the office, guess what he sees? HE IS WORKING!!! WOW!!! ON FACEBOOK!!!! So this is how he works.... hmmmmm

These 2 incidents are enough for me to lose my respect for him not counting those incidents that happened directly to me. I will not respect him anymore. Whatever I need to do, I will still do my best. But, I tell myself, I will stand up for my friends if I need to. If he become heaven, I will become hell. 你做初一，我做十五。That's what my MSN nickname says, and I will do it! Well, I've already done it...

Well, I'm not going to waste my life thinking about all these anyway. When I need to do it, then I will do it. Not enough sleep for the week. Almost everyday, for sleep late and wake up early. Monday, 5am wake up liao. Dinner at 12am. Because of some stupid things. Slept at 1am. Woke up next day.. 4.45am. At least I went back to sleep until 7am. But I'm on duty that day. Slept at 12am++ again that day. Wednesday, 5am wake up again. And I got tired from then on... Guess that is why my temper is so short for the week. I need to regain my composure but at the same time, do what is right, and what I promised to do, without getting into trouble...

== Lyrics of the post ==

Paramore - Brick Boring Brick

She lives in a fairy tale
Somewhere too far for us to find
Forgotten the taste and smell
Of the world that she's left behind
It's all about the exposure the lens I told her
The angles were all wrong now
She's ripping wings off of butterflies

With her feet on the ground
And her head in the clouds
Well go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle
Well go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle
Ba da ba da ba

So one day he found her crying
Coiled up on the dirty ground
Her prince finally came to save her
And the rest you can figure out
But it was a trick
And the clock struck twelve
Well make sure to build your house brick by boring brick
or the wolf's gonna blow it down

Keep your feet on the ground
And your head in the clouds
Well go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle
Well go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle

Well you built up a world of magic
Because your real life is tragic
Yeah you built up a world of magic
If it's not real
You can't hold it in your hand
You can't feel it with your heart
And I won't believe it
Well if it's true
You can see it with your eyes
Even in the dark
And that's where I want to be, yeah

Go get your shovel
We'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle
Go get your shovel
We'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle
Ba da ba da ba...

Updates!!!

2010-01-11T17:44:00.002+08:00

Hello people! If you were wondering why today I can update, is just because I on MC today. Tonight's gonna book in. Just want to update on what I've been doing. KL trip, will update somewhere on Friday, during my long weekend. Haha.

Nothing much this week, except that I have to book in after so much fun in KL. Was still in holiday mood when I booked in. Haha. Book in, first thing I know checked, FIVE duties for this month! 3 extras duties and 2 regimental duties. Luckily only one do on weekend. Which I just completed. 2 done, 3 more to go.

Friday was quite eventful for me. Afternoon met up with Wenting for lunch. Evening met with Yingjia to buy my iTouch! Yes! iTouch! No need post pictures, lah. You all know how it looks like anyway. I realised I have been going to HK cafes for the past 1 month. When i went to watch Avatar with Wenting, Wesley and Derrick, it was HK cafe for lunch. When I came out for supper with my cousins, it was the HK cafe and Yew Tee. When I met up with Eunice buddy for lunch, HK cafe. Met with Wenting for lunch last friday, STILL HK cafe, except this time is different, Lot 1's HK cafe which is not Xin Wang but of another name. Dinner with Yingjia that day, STILL Xin Wang HK Cafe. Hahaha! Oh ya, not forgetting, during my KL trip, we also went to a HK cafe for lunch! I feel so HK now. Not Hong Kan, is Hong Kong. Just that I dun speak Canto.

I bought iTouch, so that next day duty, can have something to do. Can watch shows, play games. But the itunes quite difficult to use leh. Not very sure how to use, but managed to transfer songs and some videos into it. Why can't Apple use "Drag and Drop"? It's much more easier! I can create different folders, and manage my files better. The way it organise my songs is a bit messy. You can only create playlist on itunes. I think can create on iTouch itself, but I have to figure out how. I can't put selected photos into my itouch. I can only sync one whole folders of photos into it. And I can't delete them in my iTouch. Can only use itunes to delete. I do think it'll be better if Apple can use Drag and Drop. Like sony ericsson, have different folders for different use such as folder for Music, folder for Videos and folder for Pictures.

Battery life is very short. Play game continuous for 45 mins, and you can see your batt's life in red alert mode. Think it's worst if you watch videos. Sat alone, I charged 2 times already. One person doing duty in office, nothing to do. That's why. Maybe if don't use intensively, it'll be better. I thought buying iTouch is better than iPhone. Imagine, given its battery life, and you are one intensive user like me, you finished your battery and suddenly you need to make an emergency call. Than good luck to you already. HAHA! GG.com.sg =X

Other than that, all are fine. Video's super clear. I've put in a whole series of Death Note anime into it. Gonna watch it when I am free. Hehehe.The games' quite okay. Web surfing is good. But I can't save pictures from facebook leh. Anyone can teach me how??

I just don't like how everything must go through iTunes only. haha.

iTouch, 32 GB, $400+++. Heart pain. These whole month i can go eat grass already. Thanks Yingjia for her company. She kept bullying me. HAHAHA! Oh ya, we saw Derrick! lols. AND WEIKAI.... on a wall poster!! So sad, its a poster for Roasted Duck Rice. =P

Ok lah, I go figure out my iTouch again. Friday, I'll try to update again. Haha. Ciaoz!

BTW, take a listen to the song of the post. Heaven Can Wait by We The Kings. It's nice and catchy! There's acoustic version too! You can download the songs by clicking on the link! It has nice lyrics, so here's the lyrics! =)

== Lyrics of the post ==

We The Kings - Heaven Can Wait

Here's a song
For the nights i think too much and
Here's a song when I imagine us together
Here's a song, for when we talk too much
And I forget my words

Heaven can wait up high in the sky
It's you and i
Heaven can wait deep down in your eyes
I'm yours tonight
Lay your heart next to mine
I feel so alive
Tell me you want me to stay,
Forever
'Cause heaven can wait

Here's a song for the one
Who stole my heart
And ran so far, that cupid couldn’t catch her

Here’s a song
For the kid who aims so high
He shot her down

Heaven can wait up high in the sky
It's you and i
Heaven can wait deep down in your eyes
I'm yours tonight
Lay your heart next to mine
I feel so alive
Tell me you want me to stay,
Forever
'Cause heaven can wait

Here's a song
For the night I drink too much
And spill my words

Heaven can wait up high in the sky
It's you and i
Heaven can wait deep down in your eyes
I'm yours tonight
Lay your heart next to mine
I feel so alive
Tell me you want me to stay,
Forever
'Cause heaven can wait

'Cause heaven can wait(x2)

Highlights of 2009!

2010-01-03T21:14:00.001+08:00

Thinking back, I think Year 2009 is really a fulfilling year. A lot of things happened. Let's track back and see my highlights of Year 2009.

JANUARY 2009

23rd to 25th - went Malaysia to prepare and celebrate CNY. Asthma relapsed.

26th - Returned from Malaysia and went to Yingjia's house to celebrate.

27th - Went to my uncle's house to celebrate CNY. Watched Lion Dance. Lost quite a lot on betting. Not Dragon's year!

FEBRUARY 2009

7th - LIA gathering. Initially wanted to have steamboat, but went Minds Cafe instead. Rachel, Yuheng, Jun Kai, Aifang, Shihui and me. Had much fun. But haven't had another gathering until now. =(

15th - 4E1 gathering. Have not met my classmates since we graduated. Location: Siglap Pizza Hut (If I did not remember wrongly). Wanted to befriend her again, but doesn't have the courage to talk to her at that time. Lina, Nadhirah, Hasnani, Syuhadah, Marianne, Teng Yee, Benson and Me!

25th - The day I POP-ed to become a 3rd Sergeant. Received Silver Bayonet, top 10% of the course. I never thought I get it and I did not think much of it anyway.

MARCH 2009

7th - Lokping's 21st celebration. Had much fun. Didn't get to force Lokping to eat the mushrooms though. HAHA!

APRIL 2009

Nothing much happened. So NEXT!

MAY 2009

9th - 1st time went pub. Timbre. Jonathan, Lokping, Benjamin, Adrian, Jiawen, Xingzhi and Me.

15th to 17th - I-Camp 09. Super duper fun. One of the best I-Camp I attended. Group: SOCKETS!

23rd - Syafiq's 21st Birthday BBQ and Fiona's 21st Birthday celebration at Pasir Ris.

27th - My 21st Birthday. Took 1 and a half day leave. Went hospital to take my operation date. Went school for volleyball and running where they gave me a surprise birthday. Played cake. My Man Utd lost to Barca in the Champions League Finals that night. =(

29th - Had my 21st birthday celebrated by the OB seniors after OB training. 2 celebrations within 3 days. Was a happy guy. =)

30th - Sundown Marathon. Went down as supporters. Weilson, Maoquan, Jewellcy, Mirza, Derrick and Me. Lots of pictures taken. Gratz runners: Benjamin, Zhanyu, Wenting, Yuheng, Huihong and Weikai.

JUNE 2009

5th - Went to celebrate Yonghui's birthday. Planned at Minds Cafe. Had fun. Benjamin, Weilson, Maoquan, Jewellcy, Yonghui and Me! Went down Changi Airport for some more madness.

6th - Shin Nie's housewarming. Quite surprised she invited me. Able to meet my secondary school classmates again. Still didn't have the courage to talk to her. But at least things are better. All girls, only me one guy. No wonder I am all quiet that day. Tengyee, Marianne, Lina, Syuhadah and Me.

12th - Went out with Zhanyu, Weilson, Jiaxuan, Jewellcy, Maoquan and Iszwan to Orchard + Plaza Sing. Jumpshots, fun, True or Dared.

13th - OCS 73/08 Commissioning Parade. Went down to support Jiajunn, Joe, Henry, Syafiq and Yongjie. After that, NPOB BBQ. Stayed till next day. Truth or Dared all the way. Had fun.

15th - Pinnacle Race Clinic. Apply a day leave just for this clinic. zzz

20th - Planned a gathering for my Sec Sch classmates. Went Mind's Cafe at SAFRA Tampines. Gave Marianne a surprised celebration. A successful one. I PLAN ONE OKAY!! HAHAHA!! Benson, Sunder, Tengyee, Nadhirah, Syuhadah, Lina, Hasnani, Marianne and Me! Still didn't talk to her much. But we did had fun. =)

27th - Pinnacle Race! Paired up with Benjamin again. Got 2nd again. When's our 1st going to come? Transformers that night. Did things we shouldn't have done. Well, learn from mistakes. Learn from experience. =)

JULY 2009

5th - LIA gathering planned by me. Unsuccessful one. Wanted to go Timbre. Never book place. In the end no seats, after waiting for so long. Rachel and Sally left first. Left Junkai, Yuheng, Xinyi and me. Wenting and Yingjia joined us. Watched Ice Age 3 midnight movie. Funny movie. Cabbed home. =)

10th - ONE year serving as NSF. ONE more year to go.

12th - Jonathan's mum passed away. Hope she's fine up there. Don't worry, Jon's coping very well. =)

18th - Yingjia's surgery. She's my senior, surgery senior.

24th - Celebrated Jiajunn's 22nd Birthday at his home. Brought a lot of food. Benjamin, Lokping, Huihong, Adrian, Jiawen and Me!

26th - Wenting had a event at Jurong Point. Made sculptures out of balloons. Very beautiful! After that, went with Yuheng, Zhangyu, Maoquan, Weilson to West Mall play arcade. Jiaxuan met us. Went to play bowling if I never remember wrongly.

27th - I had a surgery on my right ankle. Start of my 3 months MC. Benjamin visited me during my one day stay in hospital. Thanks dude!

31st - Lokping, Adrian, Benjamin, Xingzhi, Jiajunn and Huihong visited me. Many many food ah! Thanks guys!

AUGUST 2009

7th - OB peeps came to visit me. Benjamin came alone. Lots of them. Lucky mum cooked enough. Maoquan, Sebastian, Jiaxuan, Yingjia, Weilson, Wenting, Chengyi, Jacqueline, Han Bin, Zhanyu, Grace, KK and Weikai.

8th - Henry 21st Birthday Dinner. Went Jumbo Seafood @ Dempsey. After that, Adrian brought us to Yellow Jello, or Yellow Submarine to chill. Lousy place. HAHA! Lokping, Jonathan, Henry, Benjamin, Jiajunn, Jiawen, Amanda, Adrian, Elson and Me!

19th - OB peeps visited me again. Yingjia, Jewellcy, Jiaxuan, Weilson, Maoquan and Weikai. Played with the 2 babies until they don't want to sleep. Haha. Thanks for visiting!

22nd - Alpha gathering. Lloyd and Huining came back from Germany! Went for dinner and after that Minds Cafe. Lloyd, Huining, Benjamin, Lokping, Jiawen, Joe, Dajie, Amanda, Jonathan, Elson Lim and Me!

SEPTEMBER 2009

10th - Went down to Jewellcy's house that night to give her a birthday surprise. Grace and Zhanyu cabbed down to fetch me. Met with the rest of the OB peeps. Grace, Zhanyu, Jiaxuan, Yvonne, Huihong, Weilson, KK, Maoquan, Weikai and Me. I dunno I missed out anybody or not. Haha!

18th - Jonathan and Benjamin's 21st Birthday celebration at Timbre. Benjamin, Jonathan, Amanda, Hockwei, Lokping, Noel, Henry, Adrian, Jiawen, Xingzhi, Her Boyfriend and Me.

20th - Benjamin's 21st Birthday celebration with OB. Followed by Minds Cafe. I almost spoiled the birthday surprise. =P I didn't receive the message properly, in the end blurted something out. Whatever it is, he enjoyed his day, that's most important.

26th - Wenting's 21st birthday celebration at her house! So fun. She's getting sabo until very jialat. First time see Wenting so crazy. Okay, she's rather crazy sometimes. HAHA! Went down to K-box @ SAFRA Jurong after that. 1st time go K-Box. To accompany Jonathan as he is leaving for France soon. Lokping, Jiajunn, Benjamin, Huihong, Jonathan, Amanda, Jiawen, Adrian and Me!

OCTOBER 2009
9th - Sent Lokping to Wallaby. Reached there super early because I went to Lavender make renew passport. Thought will be long. In the end, super early. Thanks Yingjia for accompanying me through sms. Jonathan, Benjamin, Jiajunn,, Adrian and Me!

10th - Went Sally's house. She met with car accident. When the Bai Kar meets the Bai Kar. Rachel, Yuheng, Liduan, Junkai and Me! After that, went to celebrate Kelvin's birthday at Liang Court. They sang Karaoke. I didn't sing. I am not suitable for singing. Never sing before, don't dare to sing. Kelvin, Rebecca, Angelia, Derrick, KK, Grace, Yingjia, Benjamin, Syafiq, Wenting, Farand, Junwei, Jia Junn and Me!

21st - Sent Jonathan off to France. Benjamin, Jiajunn, Xingzhi, Her boyfriend, Hockwei, Amanda and Me! After all of us left, his flight got postponed. zzz

23rd - 25th - Went Malaysia. JB to my cousin's place. Brought me and siblings to City Square. Watched movie, forgot the name of the movie. Not very nice anyway. haha.

NOVEMBER 2009

7th - Xingzhi and her brother's birthday celebration at The Training Shed, City Beach Resort. Had great fun teasing Sok Yum. Laughed until cannot laughed anymore. HAHA! Benjamin, Jia Junn, Huihong, Noel, Eddie, Sokyum, Junyi, Jiawen and Me!

11th - Went to OBS presentation. Thanks Yingjia for accompany. Initially say don't want go. In the end, last minute say want to go. zzz. Quite funny. Dinner at Al Ameen. Weikai, Yingjia, Maoquan, Zhanyu, Jewellcy, Jiaxuan, Iszwan, Sebastian and many many people and Me! I forgot got who liao.

12th - MC finished liao. Booked in. 1st think I hear when I saw COS, "NAH BEH CHEE BYE! You come back already!" But it's his way of saying things. Didn't blame him though. But the booking in process is really super duper sian. Thanks Wenting for cheering me up! My NS friends see me also like stunned, some welcomed me back. =)

21st - Another 4E1 gathering. This time a lot of them couldn't make it. Went Funan IT Mall's Minds Cafe. Free membership card for me. Played some games, had fun. Too bad she wasn't there. (Don't misunderstood. She is a friend whom I broke friendship with during Sec Sch. Something I regretted for my childishness. Just want to be back friend with her.) Fadzley, Lina, Hasnani, Syuhadah, Nadhirah, Benson, Sunder, Sarah, Syamimi and Me!

28th - Junyi's birthday celebration at The Penny Black. Another Sokyum-teasing day. Laughed non-stop. HAHA! She kept believing Noel's leg has been amputated. Noel and Sokyum have rumours. HAHA! So funny! Benjamin, Jiajunn, Huihong, Sokyum, Noel, Jiawen, Adrian, Eddie, Xingzhi, Her Boyfriend and Me!

DECEMBER 2009
4th - NPOB AGM 09. This is the smallest AGM I've attended. But the hosts did pretty well lah! Singing session at Halo Bar after that for NPOB alumnus. Didn't sing again. Not suitable for singing and was feeling sick. Asthma attack relapsed. =(
Benjamin, Jiajunn, Huihong, Yuheng, Hanbin, Michelle, Farand, Kelvin, Syafiq, Wenting, Yingjia, Grace, KK, Jacqueline, Junwei, Eileen, Clement, Chengyi and Me! I don't know whether I missed anybody out. Hehe.

5th - Lokping had returned and want to meet us! Movie at JP, Hua Mulan. Nice show! Went to visit Jonathan's father after that. Jonathan called back and we talked to him. Benjamin, Amanda, Jiawen, Jiajunn and Me!

6th - Standard Chartered Marathon! Didn't run. But went down early to support. Stayed until everybody came back. Lunched and went home alone. Marathoners get to sit in car. Hehe. Congrats Benjamin, Wenting, Grace, Zhanyu, Wesley, Frendo, Jacqueline, Hanbin, Soon Xiang, Wei Kai, KK, Sebastian, Jewellcy, Victor, Jianlong and Yonghui for completing the marathon. To Jacq, Grace and Maoquan, never complete is the organiser's fault. Next one try again. I also going to go for it! Not forgetting Hilda and Me for coming to support. =)

12th - X'mas dinner at Vivo City with Old old birds. An OB alumnus gift exchange dinner. Yingjia, Grace, KK, Syafiq, Junkai, Derrick, Kelvin, Yuheng, Michelle, the other old old birds and ME!

13th - Sentosa with 1D1. Damn fun! Sunburnt until cannot burnt anymore. Luckily I after that all the way on leave. Did stupid stunt by rolling on the sand. HAHA! Went to see doc, got MC. Went IKEA. Chicken wings there is SUPER NICE! Must go there again. Benjamin, Lokping, Adrian, Xingzhi and Me!

17th - Went out with Adrian to Jurong Point. Wanted to buy X'mas gift for gift exchange next day. Cock all the way! HAHA! Thanks for accompany.

18th - NPOB Christmas celebration at Pandan Valley! It was really fun. Suddenly felt like I went back to poly, in camps with OB. Fun and games. Thanks Wenting, Yingjia, Kelvin and Syafiq for coming up with this event. Jacqueline, Midori, Khai, Eileen, Jianlong, Yuheng, Grace, KK, Zhanyu, Maoquan, Hanbin, Junwei, Shuxian, Daren, Eugene, Minyi, Derrick, Wesley, Benjamin, Huiting, Weikai, Huihong, Jiajunn, Syafiq, Wenting, Aifang, Yingjia, Jiajun, Kelvin, Mirza, Clement, Xinyi, Chengyi and Me! Too many people. Hopefully didn't miss out anyone. Haha. After that, went supper with Wenting, Weikai, Kelvin, Syafiq and Yuheng at Yew Tee. Eat roti john. Can't finish. Too big. Waste money. Expensive, poor service. Won't go there often anymore.

19th - Adrian's 21st Birthday Dinner Treat at Jpot, Vivo City. Very nice of him. HAHA! Another Sokyum-teasing day. HAHA! But not so much this time. Want to make Adrian BO CHUN one! Want to order LOBSTER! HAHA! But give chance only. =P Jonathan came back to France for a break. Great to see him. Went to drink beer at a pub. Don't know what pub. Man Utd lost that night. =( Adrian, Lokping, Noel, Sokyum, Jiawen, Amanda, Jonathan, Henry, Benjamin, Xingzhi, Her Boyfriend and Me!

20th - KK's 21st Birthday celebration at his house! Went with Wenting and very paiseh. Took wrong LRT, go one round. zzz... A lot of OB people. KK very jialat. Do so many punishments. Wear bikini somemore. =X Benjamin, Wenting, Kelvin, Rebecca, Syafiq, Yingjia, Angelia, Grace, Chengyi, Hanbin, Daren, Jiajun, Clement, Weilson, Weikai, Eileen, Huihong, Hafiz, Jacqueline, Wesley, Sebastian, Soonxiang, Zhanyu, Raymond, Victor, Shawn, Jiaxuan, Yvonne, Iszwan, Jessie, Hilda, Jewellcy and Me!

22nd - Watched Avatar. Very nice! I like! Wesley, Derrick, Wenting and Me! Wenting did some stunt. HAHAHAHAHA!!! =X

24th - X'mas eve. Went to Uncle's house for a gathering. Nice food! Played PS2 games. Haha.

25th - X'mas. COS duty. Nothing much.

28th to 1st Jan - Genting/KL trip! Had a lot of fun! Spent till BO CHUN!!! Will update on the trip soon! So stay tune! Benjamin, Jiajunn, Lokping, Adrian and Me!

This year super happening ah! Haha. Okay, that's the end of my 2009 Highlights. Booking in soon! Ciaoz!

== Lyrics of the post ==
Dear friends, so long
wasurenai
kurikaesu deai no naka
chiisana kizuato wo
ryoute ni kakaeteru bokura
samayou bakari
kono hateshinai sekai wo mitsumeru
tabibito yo

It's so precious when you have good wishes
Open eyes and see inside of your heart

kodoku toiu kane no oto ga
inori no kotoba wo sasou
sugisaru genjitsu to
yasashiku ikidzuku asu ha
anata no subete
yurusu deshou mayou koto ha nai
arukidasou

It's so precious when you have good wishes
Open eyes and see inside of your heart

samayou bakari
hikari mezashi arukitsudzuketeru
tabibito yo

itoshii tomo yo chikara nakushite mo
kakenukeyou konna jidai wo
aisuru hito yo yagate tagai ni
kono machi ni eien wo sakasou
soshite watashi ha itsu no hi ka mata
utau darou tabidatsu no darou

la la la la

Guess Who's Back!

2010-01-02T03:24:00.007+08:00

Guess who's back?
Hey yo! I'm BACK!!!
Yes, I am back to blogging! Anybody miss me?! Think blog is still the best place to share all my things.

This time, I'll try my blog to be different from last time! Different style, different content different everything. I'll try to make it more interesting, more posts, more videos, more everything!

Well, it's 2010 already, I actually wanted to create this blog before 01 Jan 2010 and post this up on 01 Jan 2010 on the spot, but due to some technique problem, problems with the codes, I have to delay it until now.

Alright, here's a layout of my blog, I'm not too sure about it though, but I think it's something like this. My blog will show posts of daily entries. Meaning to say, it will only show one post, one day. If you want to read my previous posts, it'll be under "Memories" and choose the date you missed. As my archive is set to read daily posts, it'll really be a long long long long list as more posts are entered in the future. Still trying to work on that. I want to make my archives such that, my posts are shown daily but if you click on my monthly archives, then all the posts for the months will come out. I tried, but doesn't seem to work. Anybody who knows how to do it, can tell me. Thanks!

Then, there is this music player for the post. Songs will be changed for every post. The song of the post can be anything. The song can be how I am feeling for the day, the song that keeps playing in my mind, the song that is my favourite song, anything!! So don't assume anything, that what I post = what I feel, okay?! Maybe if I want, I might explain why I play this song.

Yes, and now, I posted this song, because I am BACK!!! "It feel so empty without me..." <<< Is that right?! HAHA! Well, like I said, this blog will be different from my last time blog. It'll have more things, more controversies, more stories, more everything! Okay, not everything. But I try to make it as interesting as possible, with videos, stories and etc.

Anyway, I still haven't wish you people a Happy New Year! 2010! New year, new resolutions, new wishes, new dreams, new everything! I wish all of you, stay happy, stay cheerful, stay healthy. Wish all your family and friends stays strong and healthy. To those who received my e-cards, you are those people who are special to me and really close to me. Those who didn't receive, it's not you are nothing to me, you all are still my friends, just that we aren't still that close yet. I also think I missed out some of you. I wanted to send to everyone like for the Christmas one but I have no time because I really want to send those individual cards to my special friends. I wanted to send everyone an SMS, but I can't because I am in Malaysia. Anyway, I just wished all of you here, so don't gei gao lah!

Resolution

New year, new resolution, what's yours? Well, my resolution for this year:

1) I want to be more confident. I am lacking of a lot of self confident and I know it. Because I lacked of self-confident, I lacked of a lot of courage too.

2) I want to have more fashion sense. I think most of you people are sick of me wearing the same thing for every gathering. =D

3) I want to be a better person! I have a great bunch of friends around me to teach me how to be a better person, so I know I'll learn a lot from them.

4) Start running again. I am aiming for Pinnacle Race of this year. Hope I can recover in time. Pinnacle Race shall be the time when I start my major activity again! This time, all out to get my 1st place!!!

5) Standard Chartered Marathon! I have missed 2 years of marathons already. Everytime be supporter very sian also. I do appreciate those who appreciate me going down to support them run. Thank you for appreciating my efforts. =) This time, I will be the one to appreciate my friends' effort of coming down to support me and the other runners!

6) I want to improve my language. My English is chui, so is my Chinese. English, I can read, can write but cannot speak. Chinese, I can speak but cannot read and write. Sucks right?

7) I want to improve my handwriting. YES! I don't know how, but I'll try. My handwriting is really like so sucks lah! Everytime write birthday cards, I see my friends write so nice, but I write like kanasai.

8) I want my friends to be happy. I think I will try no matter what to keep them happy. Happy friends = happy me. =)

*ADDED ON*

9) I also want to make my face become better. My face is getting more and more chui ah.

10) I think I also should be aware of my own image. Think sometimes I talk a bit too loud, laughed a bit too hard and exaggerate a lot of actions. But sometimes I just want to be lame and bring some laughter for my friends. So maybe I should control a little. Maybe I also need to have some situation awareness. I realised I tend to be blunt with my words and blurt out a lot of unnecessary things.

11) I want to regain back my health. Ever since I am on MC, I kept falling sick. Became weak. I need my health back!

I think I have a lot more, but right now I can't think of them. I'll post them up if I think of them because some of my resolutions will require support from my friends. HAHA!!! As for wishes, I will update them as soon as possible.

I wanted to post something for my KL trip, but think it'll be next time lah! It's really fun anyway. Will post soon!

I am still trying to make this blog look more appealing. If you have any ideas, please do tell me. Till the next post! Ciaoz!

== Lyrics of the post ==

[Obie Trice]
"Obie Trice, Real Name No Gimmicks..." 

[Eminem]
Two trailer park girls go round the outside,
round the outside, round the outside.
Two trailer park girls go round the outside,
round the outside, round the outside. 

[Eminem]
Guess who's back, back, back 
back again, gain gain
Shady's back back back
tell a friend
Guess who's back, guess who's back,
guess who's back, guess who's back,
guess who's back, guess who's back,
guess who's back... la la la 

I've created a monster, cuz nobody wants to
See Marshall no more they want Shady
I'm chopped liver
Well if you want Shady, this is what I'll give ya
A little bit of weed mixed with some hard liquor
Some vodka that will jumpstart my heart quicker
Then a shock when I get shocked at the hospital
By the Dr. when I'm not cooperating
When I'm rocking the table while he's operating "Hey"
You waited this long to stop debating
Cuz I'm back, I'm on the rag and ovulating
I know that you got a job Ms. Cheney
But your husband's heart problem is complicated
So the FCC won't let me be
Or let me be me so let me see
They tried to shut me down on MTV
But it feels so empty without me
So, come on dip, bum on your lips
Jump back, jiggle the hip and wiggle a bit
And get ready cuz this is about to get heavy
I just settled all my lawsuits, "Fuck you Debbie!" 

Now this looks a job for me
So everybody just follow me
Cuz we need a little controversy,
Cuz it feels so empty without me 

I said this looks like a job for me
So everybody just follow me
Cuz we need a little controversy,
Cuz it feels so empty without me 

Little hellions, kids feeling rebellious
Embarrassed, their parents still listen to Elvis
They start feeling like prison is helpless,
Til someone comes along on a mission and yells "bitch"
A visionary, vision is scary, could start a revolution,
Pollutin' the air waves a rebel
So let me just revel and bask,
In the fact that I got everyone kissing my ass
And it's a disaster such a catastrophe
For you to see so damn much of my ass you ask for me?
Well I'm back, dana na na na na na na na na shhh
Fix your bent antenna
Tune it in and then I'm gonna enter
Into the front of your skin like a splinter
The center of attention back for the winter
I'm interesting, the best thing since wrestling
Infesting in your kids ears and nesting
Testing "Attention Please"
Feel the tension soon as someone mentions me
Here's my 10 cents my 2 cents is free
A nuisance, who sent, you sent for me? 

Now this looks like a job for me
So everybody just follow me
Cuz we need a little controversy,
Cuz it feels so empty without me 

I said this looks like a job for me
So everybody just follow me
Cuz we need a little controversy,
Cuz it feels so empty without me 

A tisk-it a task-it,
I go tit for tat with anybody who's talking this shit that shit
Chris Kirkpatrick, you can get your ass kicked
Worse than them little Limp Bizkit bastards,
And Moby, you can get stomped by Obie,
You 36 year old bald headed fag blow me
You don't know me, you're too old
Let go, it's over, nobody listens to techno
Now lets go, just give me the signal
I will be there with a whole list full of new insults
I've been dope, suspenseful with a pencil
Ever since Prince turned himself into a symbol
But sometimes, man it just seems,
Everybody only wants to discuss me
So this must mean I'm dis-gus-ting,
But its just me I'm just obscene
Though I'm not the first king of controversy
I am the worst thing since Elvis Presley,
To do Black Music so selfishly
And use it to get myself wealthy (Hey)
There's a concept that works
20 million other white rappers emerge
But no matter how many fish in the sea
It'll be so empty without me 

Now this looks like a job for me
So everybody just follow me
Cuz we need a little controversy,
Cuz it feels so empty without me 

I said this looks like a job for me
So everybody just follow me
Cuz we need a little controversy,
Cuz it feels so empty without me 

[na na na na na na na na na na
na na na na na na]times 2
KIDS!!!!

memories under the trees

Don't understand..

From me to you...

Bye 2011, Hello 2012!

You make me colorblind

No Time!!!

Disappointed

=)

my first big step... excited!! *sweat*

=) =(

Glory Glory Man United!

wanna be the one who is there for you....

Totally bad bad day. 一个接一个。。。

waiting is torture. hahaha!

if you're not ready, i'll wait till you are... =)

Few months no update, one week of full fun, now back to reality..

So, what's my talent?

Happy Valentines~!! ♥

Post of the new year

I miss my friends...

Hold on!

Bitches and Gentlemen

I'm back again..

Troubled thoughts

Hope

Sick...

Wish

oh no, its friday!

unlucky

First Step

My CNY so far...

CNY~!!!

For the past week

Random

Lousy week

Updates!!!

Highlights of 2009!

Guess Who's Back!

my first big step... excited!! sweat